The Joshleen Journey

Really?! #8

Colleen POV
"Let's get married..." those words repeat in my head. Am I ready for marriage? There's still so much we don't know about each other. We've only been together for a couple months. Not even a year! "Colleen?" he asks nervously. "... uh.. ummm.. what?" I say still very much shocked. "Come on let's get married. I want to spend the rest of my life with you." he says as he grabs my hands. "Josh." I say as he looks "Oh." he says as a tear rolls off of his cheek. "It's just so soon. We haven't even been together a year. We still don't know a lot about each other." I say. "That's true, but everything I already know about you, I love. And I want to keep learning more about you. I just love you so much." he says looking into my eyes. "You're my life Josh. But it doesn't change the fact that it's just too soon. We will eventually get married but just let time make it's magic." I say smiling. "I guess you're right." he says and gives me a quick kiss. "Let's go get some sushi." he says and smiles as he picks us up off the ground.

We go to sushi and order petty much everything like we always do. Paparazzi are swarming us as we try our best to walk in. The manager eventually tells the paparazzi that they cannot stand outside the window so they all end up scattering. We thank the manager and continue talking. The drinks come and Josh is staring off somewhere so I follow his eyes. Someone is proposing. Oh no. "Josh." I say as he turns his head and gives me the safest fake smile. "Yes?" he says. "It will happen." I say and rub his hand. "Why can't we do it now? What's the point in waiting if we know we are going to get married?!" he says raising his voice a little. "Josh calm down sweetie." I say in a soft calm voice. He nods. "It's just that... what if something happens and you hate something I do and want to break up but we are married?" I ask him. "You think we are going to break up?!" he says raising his voice again. "No I didn't say that." I say. "Well do you even see a future for us?!?" "Of course I do baby." I say.
"I don't freaking get you Colleen!" he says and gets up. "Where are you going?" I ask almost crying. "I need some air." he says and walks out as paparazzi swarm him but he just keeps walking. I put down a 100 dollar bill on the table and go after him. I walk out and I'm blinded by all the flashes. "Excuse me." I say trying to get by. "What happened?!". "Did you guys break up?"  "Are you guys calling it quits?!" That's all I hear. I finally can see and find Josh far down the street. I start running towards. "Josh stop please." I say as I catch up to him. "What?!" he says as he turns around with blood shot eyes. "Why are you doing this baby?" I ask him now crying too. "I need to rethink some things obviously." he says. I can't breathe. "... but.. no.. I love you." i say full on sobbing. "I thought that too... but.. you really hurt me Colleen. you really hurt me." he says as he walks away. I don't say anything or go after him. What's the point? I can't move. I can't speak. The love of my life just left me. What am I going to do now. I can't live without him. I call an uber and eventually get home as I sob into my pillow. Sleep is what I need right now.

Josh's POV
What did I just do? I pretty much just broke up with Colleen. That is the exact opposite of what I wanted. I don't know what came over me but this isn't right. I need Colleen. She's my life. The air I breathe and I just gave that all up, for what? I'm such a idiot. I need to make things right. She probably hates me now. How will I ever get her back after what I just put her poor little heart through.

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