The Best Way To Murder (Suzuya Juuzou)

Chapter 29

Everything around me seemed to stop as my eyes laid on her still body. This couldn't be happening now, not when I finally had someone who cared for me. Not when I found someone I love.

I fell to my knees right next to her.

"No no no no" I kept repeating as I shook Emi's body.

"Emi-san! Wake up! Open your eyes Emi-san! You told me you would come back! Please come back!" my frantic words did nothing to her. My vision was blurry and tears rolled freely down my cheeks, colliding with her body beneath me.

"E-Emi-san! I swear if you leave me alone I will never forgive you" I said through gritted teeth. My heart was beating so fast it hurt.

"I-I just have to stop the blood right? You're a ghoul! You're not supposed to die so easily! Emi-san please open your eyes!" I ignored the crack in my voice as I reached out for her hand. I took it between mine and brought it up to my lips, gently pressing them against her skin.

"Emi-san, Please" I whispered. My hot breath warmed her hand. I reached out for her other hand and turned them over, my heart breaking when I saw the message.

"If I know what love is, it's because of you" I whispered feeling a new wave of tears come.

"It's because of you Emi-san. Please come back. Our story isn't finished. It's not ending here. All you need to do is open your eyes" I said squeezing her hand.

"Please... Just come back" I whispered.
My breathing stopped as I caught a glimpse of her father walking hesitantly towards us. He looked surprised at Emi's still body.

"Emi?" I heard him whisper.

That's when the switch in my body turned on. My head snapped up to him, but my usual smile was long gone.

"Don't touch her!" I screamed at the top of mg lungs. Before I knew it I was on the floor, his body underneath mine.

"It's all your fault!" I yelled.

"All your fault! All your fucking fault!" I kept repeating as I stabbed him repeatedly with my knives. One after the other, each knife pierced his body until he wasn't struggling anymore.

I was sure I had killed him, but I didn't stop. I kept stabbing him. Anger flowed through my veins as I ran out of knives. I started punching him until my knuckles busted open, his blood mixing with mine. After I felt some of the anger leave my body I stood up panting. I saw a blue haired boy stand there in shock.

His golden eyes were wide and his lower lip trembled. I noticed his kagune out, one of the two kagune who had killed Emi. I was about to charge at him but he disappeared, along with the body of Emi's father.

I walked towards Emi's body again. Out of ways to calm my raging heart, I collapsed on top of her. I buried one hand in Emi's hair and the other hand was against her cheek. My quivering lips connected with hers and just for a second I felt her move her lips against mine. I kissed harder, trying to ignore the fact that it was simply my imagination.

Even with Emi's lifeless body underneath me, my heart still skipped a beat as I kissed her. I could taste the salty tears that had run down my face. My breathing was shaky and I felt dizzy.

But I kept my lips against hers.

I remembered when I first saw her in the alley being attacked by another ghoul... I remebered taking her home and stitching her leg.

I still kissed her.

I remembered her broken expression when I killed her friend. I remembered taking her out to the CCG dinner.

And I still kissed her.

I remembered that night on top of the building when we both confessed. I remembered our first kiss.

And I still kissed her.

I remembered our first date, our last night together. I remembered watching her walk away before the mission started.

And I still kissed her.

Because that's the only thing I could do right now. Just kiss her, feel her lips against mine one more time.

I sighed into her lips, gently brushing my tongue against hers. I could still feel the fireworks inside me, but they felt different. I couldn't exactly pinpoint it. Maybe it was the fact that I just lost her, or maybe it's just knowing it's our last kiss. But everything felt so much more... intense.

One hand interlaced with hers, and as I kissed her, I felt everything I had built up till now crumbling at my feet. I didn't understand the feelings that were running inside me. It all felt so mixed up, I didn't know where I stood anymore. I was desperate to bring her back. I wanted her back. I needed her back.

Unable to breathe properly thanks to my constant hiccups, I pulled away and buried my head against her neck.

"Why? I-I... You promised me! You promised me you would come back! Don't leave me alone! I don't want to go back to how it was before! I don't want to live without you! I can't! I can't live without you! Y-You... You promised... You promised you would come back! Why would you lie to me! I need you Emi-san!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. My body was shaking as I brought her hand and set it on the left side of my chest, right on top of my erratic heart.

"It hurts... Please make it stop" I whispered clenching my eyes shut.

My body shook and my eyes already stung. I didn't care about any of that, I just wanted her back. I squeezed her against me, feeling her cold body against mine.

Suddenly a voice rang through my ears.

But it wasn't hers.

"Juuzou, get away from that... thing" the voice said. My body tensed and my teeth were gritted as a new feeling invaded me.

"Go away" I growled. I didn't turn around to see who it was. That is until I felt a pair of hands pulling me back.

"No! Get away from me! Stop!" I yelled. My eyes were wide with horror as two more hands grabbed me by the waist. I tried holding on to Emi's body but another pair of hands pushed her to the floor. I caught a glimpse of the clothing, the CCG uniform.

"What are you doing! Stop! Don't take her away!" I screamed as I thrashed around. I was trying to break loose from all the hands holding me back. My heart was beating painfully fast as I watched someone drag away her body.

"No! Emi-san! Let go of me!" I yelled.

"It's for the best Suzuya" I heard another voice from behind me. I felt something pierce the skin on my neck and I immediately felt dizzy. After a few seconds, the hands released me and I stumbled forward. With clumsy steps I tried to get to Emi-san, but she just kept going farther away.

"Don't leave me" I whispered and collapsed to the floor. I kept dragging my body towards her until I felt my arms and legs go limp. My dizzy eyes saw her blurry body one more time, before everything went black.

And with every feeling that was coursing through my body, every tear escaping my eyes, every sob coming from my mouth, I realized something.
All my life I kept looking for the absolute best way to kill somebody. I tried so many different things, ways, weapons. I did so many things to so many people, I thought I knew the answer to what I was looking for. But I was dead wrong. Now I know the answer.

The best way to murder.... Is falling in love.

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