You Never Know

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Okay guys. This one is for jaderiggs

I awoke and sat up in the bed with the most dreadful secret that I had been holding in for about a week.

Looking over, I saw the man that I had been dating for about six months lying peacefully in bed.

As I pushed the covers back and tried to exit the bed without waking him, Chandler put a hand on my thigh.

"Where are you going baby," he asked in that sleepy, seductive voice that he always had in the morning.

I smiled, "The bathroom."

He slid his hand down the rest of my leg until it reached my foot. I squealed in a giggle as his fingertips brushed against them.

"You know that tickles," I spluttered between giggles.

Chandler digressed, smiling before I finally stepped onto the floor of my room.

I grabbed a few articles of clothing and turned in the direction of the bathroom.

"Why are you getting dressed?" Chan asked, fully awake now.

I bit my lip,"Uh, I, uh, have to go to the store. We need food in the apartment. I'll be back soon."

I held my breath as Chandler gave me a skeptical look, but soon let it out when the look passed.

"Can you please get my chocolate chip cookies?" he asked, plopping his head back onto the pillow.

I nodded quickly and scurried into the bathroom.

As I took my clothes off and stepped into the shower, I looked down at my stomach.

How on earth could there be something living in there? How on earth did Chandler and I not prevent this? We used protection. We were careful.

Somewhere in my mind, something told me that I wasn't careful enough.

Not only was I pregnant with Chandler's baby, but he had absolutely no idea.

I had found out a few weeks ago when I started throwing up constantly and my little friend didn't come for a visit.

I decided to talk to my older sister for advice and she decided it was best to go and check myself out with a doctor.

When they told me that I was pregnant, I was extremely petrified. I had absolutely no idea what I was going to do. 

Chandler and I were fresh out of high school and both of us were trying to finish college and get jobs. There was no room in our plan for a baby.

But I couldn't do it.

I couldn't end the pregnancy.

And now, it was far too late. The baby had already started to develop body parts, so it was settled.

 I had to have the baby.

Contrary to what I had told Chandler, I wasn't going to the store today. I got up early this morning because I had a doctor's appointment where they would tell me whether or not the baby was okay and then give me a due date.

I shook all thoughts of guilt from my head and showered quickly so I could make it to the appointment on time.

After dressing and doing my hair, I called a quick farewell to Chandler and made my way to the pristine, white doctor's office.

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After I went to the doctor, I was pretty shaken up.

My doctor told me all that I should know before becoming a mother.

How I shouldn't drink alcohol.

How I shouldn't endure anything that could be mentally or physically draining.

Everything.

I made it to my car and slowly wept. I wasn't fit to be a mother. I couldn't do this.

I had to tell Chandler. I couldn't take care of this baby all by myself.

Not only was it his right to know, but it would get rid of the constant lying I had to do to keep the pregnancy a secret.

Fastening my seatbelt, I made my way home, completely forgetting about stopping at the store to make sure that my story this morning actually made sense.

I didn't think of any of this until I stepped through the door of my apartment, where Chandler sat, waiting.

"Hey (y,n)," Chandler said in an agitated tone as soon as I stepped through the doorway.

I mentally slapped myself on the forehead. How could I have forgotten? I should have just picked up his damn cookies and then quickly did some shopping so that he didn't get suspicious.

"Hey, baby" I replied back before taking my coat off and setting it on the couch.

Chandler frowned, "So where were you all day?"

I looked at the clock. It was three in the afternoon.

I silently cursed myself. It hadn't been my intention to spend the whole day at the clinic, but after the appointment, I couldn't help but let tears of sorrow and anxiety fall.

I wracked my brain for a reply, but Chandler had already beat me to it.

"Why wasn't I good enough for you?"

I knit my eyebrows together in confusion until I realized that  he thought that I was cheating on him.

"Chandler, I swear to you, its not what you think. I-" I stammered.

He waved me off and I started to cry again.

"Chan-"

"Don't 'Chan' me, (y/n). I'm leaving. We're done." Chandler said without hesitation.

I couldn't believe it.

Three years with Chandler and all of it down the drain in two minutes. I couldn't help but wonder how easy it had been for him to end it all like that.

All I did was watch.

I watched him pick up his stuff.

I watched him load it into his car.

I watched as he took the keys to the apartment and threw them onto my couch.

And most of all, I watched him pull out of the parking lot and leave me forever.

I still think about him sometimes.

Especially when I look at my small three month old daughter asleep in her crib.

The one thought that always comes to mind is...

Why did I never tell him that I was pregnant?

Would he even care?

Would he still have left me?

I always answer the same way.

You never know.


I hope y'all liked it. I love doing requests, so thank you jaderiggs   

Luv ya~ Miki



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