"How can I be so selfish?" Tobuscus, Pewdiepie, CinnamonToastKen, Cryoatic Fanfic

"How can I be so selfish?" (Tobuscus, Pewdiepie, CinnamonToastKen, Cryoatic)

Chapter 1

P.O.V Pewdie

How can I be so selfish! But why doesn't he love me the way I love him? How can I be doing any of this? Why does my head fill to the brim with thoughts of him? How can I throw away someone's love? Why do I see his face every time I close my eyes? How can Toby love me? Why am I somehow forced to love Cry? Can't he see right through me? Would it really hurt him? Why do I have all these questions in my head! Maybe I should just empty my mind. As I try to push the thoughts of them out of my mind, I was interrupted by a Skype call... From Toby. Okay! I gotta be cool, don't think about pain I could cause him... the "unimaginable" pain. What would happen if he found out? "Good thing he won't" I said out loud carelessly; I wouldn't want to raise Marzias suspicions. Oh, shit let me answer this "Hey Felix" Toby said eagerly "Oh, Hey Toby what's up?" I said, really trying to sound enthusiastic "I just wanted to see what'd you been up to" in an insane voice "Oh, you know same old same old" I sound like an asshole "Well, you and lots of other Youtubers are gonna be in LA soon I hear?" I already knew where he was going... "Yeah, Ugh I'm gonna have to go dinners waiting for me, okay? Talk to you soon! Byee" I said "Ugh, Yeah okay! Bye" Toby said. I just wanted to hang up as soon as possible

P.O.V Toby

I don't understand why but, it seems like Felix keeps distancing himself from me? Maybe I'm just being a tad clingy, after all I'm just looking froward to seeing him soon. Is that a crime? I think not! "Do you Gryphon?" "No, not at all" "Who's a little cutie!" "It's meee I am!". I know I'll Skype him! I haven't talked to him in a while anyway. "Hey Felix!" I didn't mean to sound overly excited "Oh, Hey Toby what's up?" He said but from what I could tell, he seem to have a lot on his mind "I just wanted to see what'd you been up to" I said it in a weird voice so he'd get a kick outta it "Oh, you know same old same old" he said, I guess it didn't work "Well, you and lots of other Youtubers are coming to LA pretty soon I hear?" I said just to see if he wanted to hangout or whatevar "Yeah, Ugh I'm gonna have to go dinners waiting for me okay? Talk to you soon! Byee" he said, I was kinda confused "Ugh, Yeah okay! Bye" I said, that was weird. I hope he's not creeped out by me.