"How can I be so selfish?" Tobuscus, Pewdiepie, CinnamonToastKen, Cryoatic Fanfic

Chapter 18

Pewds P.O.V

"You fucking did what?" I nearly yelled.

"Felix... I'm sorry, it was an accident!"

"You don't accidentally fuck someone!"

"I didn't mean to..."

"Didn't mean to my ass..."

"Felix... I'm really sorry..."

"Apologize all you fucking want..."

"Please just..."

"No, okay look Marzia, I'm done."

I'm done....

"What?"

"We're done. I don't wanna be with you anymore, not when you've done this to me."

"But Felix I made a mistake!"

"That's your problem then, you decided to fuck with him, you went along with it, you didn't have to, so now I'm done."

"So... Your breaking up with me?"

"That's what it's suppose to sound like yeah."

I heard a long silence, I was about to hang up when I heard he faint soft muffles in her voice, "I'll pack my stuff and be out of here before you get back."

"No, you stay."

"You hate me now, Wh-"

"I don't hate you, but you aren't moving our because I am. "

"You're what?"

"I'm moving out... And... I'm gonna live here In L.A. with one of the guys.."

Yes, I wanna gonna live with one of the guys here in L.A. Ken and Cry had already planned to move here by next week because it was a nice place to be and it seems like a better known place for Youtubers, many being here. Marzia won't have to move out, but I will. I don't want her to go find somewhere else to be, or put her in the street because truth be told, I'll still always care about her, but I'll never wanna look at her. I'll never see her that same, I don't even wanna be face to face with her. The guys will understand and maybe one of them will offer to let me be their roommate... I just... Can't go back.

"I'll go pick up my clothes and other belongings sometimes next week..." I said in a hushed tone but still audible to her ear.

"I'm sorry..." She whispered.

"I'm sorry too..."

I heard nothing for a fear seconds, until I heard her whimpers before she hung up the phone and I placed it down, tears threatening eyes. I hate to leave her broken hearted, I hate to have done this, but how could she have done this to me? I cared about her... She was my sunlight... My rising sun... My sunset, but that's thrown away now.

I loved her...

She's heart broken, but so am I and I hate myself for leaving her... I should have brought her. She could have had some much fun with me here, and we could still be together because she would have betrayed me. I feel torn, like my very heart was ripped out of my chest, and I'll never get it back...

I'll never find love like that ever again...

"Hey- Yo, Felix? You okay Buddy?" Cry sudden patting me on the back.

"Yeah... I'm fine..." I cried.

He sighed, "No, you're not Felix... Hold on a sec."

Cry left the room for god knows what. God, I'm such fool! I love her... So fucking much. How will I get over this, how would I tell the bros? They'll probably hate me now, like it was my fault and think I'm even more of an asshole from the non-fans and hardly get any pity or sympathy. This could and probably be one of the most terrible days of my like, the worst day of my life, the worst year of my life, the worst life to ever live on earth. I felt like punching something, breaking a wall, I wanted to just burst and cry my eyes out, but I had to control myself. I can't do this right now, I just can't believe this is happening or that it did happen. Soon enough, Cry come back into the room with two others which of course have to be Toby and Ken who were hanging out in Ken's hotel room.