PJO/HOO- Headcanons

Death Of A Bachelor

Do I look lonely? I see the shadows on my face

Ever since that night, I cannot look into a mirror. Her eyes haunt me every day, I simply do not have the courage to keep on living.

People have told me I don't look the same

Going outside my cabin is by far the hardest challenge. Those pitiful glances, all those 'comforting' hugs do nothing but remind me of her. Of how I let her die.

Maybe I lost weight. I'm playing hooky, with the best of the best, put my heart on my chest, so that you can see it too

They tell me that my eyes look like bottomless pools of darkness. They always say that you can see the regret and sorrow on my face, covering me whole like a thin sheet of remorse.

I'm walking the long road, watching the sky fall. The lace in your dress tangles my neck, how do I live?

I won't feel her hand on mine, or her eyes analyzing me. I won't taste her lips again, or feel her body curl into mine at night. I won't hear the creaking of the door when she came to me because of a nightmare. She was gone. And now I lived on a nightmare.

The death of a bachelor, seems so fitting for happily ever after

They always tell us how death cannot solve anything, it only brings pain to others. And I agreed, most of the times. But without her, the world seems so empty and dark. I feel like happiness was sucked out of me, I cannot muster a smile to anyone anymore, not even to her memories.

How could I ask for more? A lifetime of laughter at the expense of the death of a bachelor

But maybe, there is still something left for me at the end of the tunnel. I might be covered in shadows, but her love repels those demons creeping into my mind.

She left. And the only way I will ever get to see her again is when I face an enemy I cannot defeat. I will forever be a bachelor until she decides to bring me with her, to Elysium. But that time is not now.

I will never be the same, without her by my side. But I know that if I left now, there will be nothing but darkness for those looking for a hero.

I needed to be a hero. For her, for me, and for those who feel like me. Lost. Hopeless.

I needed to be a hero. I will be a hero.

Hey Guys!!! I wrote this one shot based on the song Death of a Bachelor by Panic! At The Disco. I feel like I could work on this piece more, but I hope you guys like it.

Also, this headcannon isn't really for a specific pairing. However, I feel like it relates to Percy and Annabeth more. And in case you guys didn't understand it, it just shows a person's thoughts after the death of a loved one.

If any of you have experienced an event like this, please, never give up. I know that it might be hard, but there is always something more for us. Please, never give up. If anyone needs someone to talk to, do not hesitate to talk to me, I'll try to help as much as I can.

Thank you for all the support. Please comment and share. Thank you for everything!

~ShadowhunterDani

COPYRIGHT: Words in italics belong to Panic! At The Disco. Song: Death of a Bachelor. I take no credit for the words italicized, I simply used them for inspiration.