I laid in bed hating myself. i put my life out on the line last night. But... i really didn't care, that was the bad part. I felt bad but i didn't regrett it. I liked the feeling of small over doses. They give you a rush and close to almost death.
"Bye... See you next break."i hugged my brother. He had a hang over.. "Love you sis." He went to the taxi and Darrian cameup. They were going to hus house for a few days then back to college "You about over dosed earlier this week Karma.." He softly said. "..but i didn't.." i smiled. "but if i would-" "If you wouldn't have found me,iwould be fine." I patted his arm. "KArma.." He said serious. "i'm serious, stop." He ordered. "No-" Then i relaised he brought my face to mine kissing me lightly. My body felt like lava and my emotions rose. "Please stop..." He held my hands looking serious. "I..can't.." I looked away confused. "Then do it for your future.." He let go of me.
The door bell rang and i opened it. "Hey!" I smiled. "Hi sexy." He pulled me up into his embrace. "Hi Auguesto!" I wrapped my legs around his waist. His hands held my thighs and i opened my lips allowing him to kiss me deep. He pushed me against the door closing it and his hands went to my butt.
''You look weird." I told him straddling him in the water. "How?" He smileedd hugled allowing me o push him against the wall of the pool. "You're high... arn't you?" I held his head straight. "No." He smiled huger, if possible. "You got anymore?" I asked letting my hands fall to his chest. "Yea... in my pants pocket." He looked up att the cieling. "A lot?'' I asked ppulling his head back by grabbing his hair. "enough." He smirked. "Go get it."
"Shit! Shit!" my eyes concentrated on Augusto as he paced back and forth on my floor. i was agains my head board. "huh? Karma!" He came to me putting his hands on the sides of my face shaking me. "Hey.... stop!" I sighed. "Stop? Stop! You were unresponsive! I was this close....." He put is pointer finger and thumb almost touching. "...to calling 911!" he slapped my face lighly for me to open my eyes. ''Hmmmmm, alright." i sat back. "Come here." He picked me up trying to set me on my feet. IK did but wrapped my arms around his neck. ''You alright?" He asked me holding my waist looking me in my eyes. "Yea...."i slowly came in feeling steadier. ''Alright... I'm gonna go home but i'ill be back arounf 7... I'm gonna take you out to eat." He nodded. "Alright."
I hAd on a white cocktail dress and white shoes on. My hair was in soft curls and my makeup was bright. KNOCK KNOCK! I stood up grabbing the clutch. I went downstairs and opened the door. "hey cutie." he held my waist and pulled me in kissing me lightly. "hi augusto." I leaned back a bit and kissed him softly wantin more. "let's get through dinner first." he laughed an held my hand. "promise?" I laughed.
"so I really like you..." augusto said as we begun eating. "I like you too." I smiled. " what I'f I was suppose to ask you to be my girlfriend?" he asked an drunk some of his water looking at me. "I would ask why?" I looked up and smiled. "I like the way I can get high with a female and have sex." he winked. "yea I like that too." I blushed. "you have a killer personality, high or sober." he put his hand on the table. I put my hand on his. "thanks. I will be your girlfriend but how will this work?" I asked. "I can visit you on all my breaks and I'll call you every night." he thoughtfully said but I knew better. "you're a college boy. I know you want to party and hook up with girls every. Night!" I squeezed his hands. He stayed quiet. " how about we be semi boyfriend and girlfriend!" I smiled. "what'd that mean?" he asked amused. "were together but we can see other people." I raised my eyebrow. "Kinda like friends with benifits?" He asked. 'Yes but you can't have sex, you can only make out.'' i laughed. "Alright, that sounds reasonable." He smiled and leaned in. I leaned in also teasing him by brusing my lips against his. He puckered his lips and i finally gave him a small kiss. He pressed harder trying to make our kiss more sentual. i gave in and our lips moved slowly together. He squeezed my hand. We both sat back and i smiled drinking some of my water.
"Bye boyfriend." i kissed him at the door. "Bye girlfriend" he held my waist to his. My arms around on his neck and we hugged. He spent the night last night and today he is going back to college,i start school tomorrow. i went back and kissed him sweetly. his hands scrunched up the shirt he actaully gave me and we finally seperated. ''i'll call you later tonight." He kissed me one lass time before jumping down the steps. I waved to him.
i sat in my bed staring at the walls. To do what i need to do or not to do what i want to do? Which way should i look at it? I sat up and got my phone. 'I need some.' i texted one of my guy friend Yannis. seconds later i got a text. 'i got you. I'ill be there in an hour.' i got out from my bed an ran up stairs. I was si ecited. Yannis always gives me good deals.
i opened the door and he had a little bagie. "i love you Yannis!'' i hugged him. His hand traveled down my body to my butt. "yannis!"i slapped his chest but he pulled me closer. ''what are you doing tonight." He asked rubbing my back and letting me go. "this."Iwaved the baggie. "not in one night, right?'' He asked tooken bag. "No of course not!" i lied. "Alright but i'il contact you for a payment later!" he winked. "Alright."
"Fuck!" i woke up on the kitchin floor. My hair stuck on my face. i sat up and looked around. Did i oversleep?! Nope it's 5:57. I got up and ran to the bathroom to get cleaned up.
"Hey" Greta met me in the parking lot. "Hi." I said trying to mask what i had done and had sunglasses on my eyes. "What's wrong?" She asked. "Nothing, i'm fine." I smiled cheeky. "Oh, okay."
