This year my baby could've been three maybe. I sat in my room just thinking to myself. "You okay?" a voice suddenly said. "Yes. " I say looking up. There was Timmy! I stood up and hugged him. "You sure?" He asked. "Yea. " I nodd. "Let's go to the garden." He smiled. I nod agreeing.
"This one reminds me of you. " He said pointing to a very bright pink flower. "Why?" I laughed. He pulled me down on his lap. "Because it's vibrant and pretty like you. " He laughed. I giggled. "Well this one reminds me of you." I said pointing to a blue and white flower close by the pink ones. "Why?" he asked tightening his arms around me. I put my arms over his. "Because it's simple but handsome. " I smiled looking back at him. "I will take that!" he laughed puckering his lips. I kissed them giggling. I turned so my legs could comfortably lay off his and held his face. "Hey you two. " A woman came up. She was skinny and twitching. "I will 3-some with you for $5. I promise it will be good. Or I can go $3 a day and we can do it as much as you want." She said scratching her neck. "No. " Timmy frowned. I put my head into Timmy's neck laughing and wrapping my arms around him. "Crazy lady. " Timmy chuckled. I looked up and he quickly pecked my lips teasingly. I poked my lips out pouting. He gave me another peck looking down at my lips. I smiled. His hand went to my jaw holding it softly he kissed me long and lovely. "I've never had this type of relationship with a girl I really liked. " He told gently. "What type of relationship do we have?" I asked wondering if we were thinking the same way. "Like we don't have title but were still together. We can enjoy each other's presence and not have sex. " He said pulling his fingers in circle on my knee. I smiled. "I feel the same. " I nod. "But one day I feel we will both want to take this relationship to the next level and maybe have amazing sex. " He joked. I giggled and hugged him. "I truly adore you. " he whispered. "And I, you. " I smiled in his neck.
Timmy said we were gonna swim today and I'm excited. I had on my favorite two piece and my hair was in a sloppy bun. I heard a knock at my door and sprang up. "Hi love." Timmy called with a smile. "Hi!" I said pulling my cover up on. "Ready?" he asked. I nod.
"Okay you guys have 2 1/2 hours out. If you don't come within that time, you will be kicked out or lose your privileges " the reception said printing off a piece of paper.
"Is it cold?" I asked Timmy as he put a foot in. "Yea. " He laughed and jumped in. Wow. This boy amazes me. He came up laughing. "You're crazy boy. " I laughed. He laughed wiping the water off his face. "Come in. " He called. "I don't wanna freeze. " I giggled. "You won't. I'll let you cuddle me. " He smiled. I pulled my cover up off and his eyes largened. "come on. " He laughed holding his arms out. I sat on the edge he came to me putting his arms on my legs as I put my feet in the water. "You look too sexy right. " He mumbled. "Thanks." I held his face. His hands went up to my waist. I went forward into him in the water and wrapped my legs around him. "Cold!" I called laughing. "It's not that bad karma. " He laughed swaying in the water. One of his hands went under my butt and the other across my back holding my side. "Keep it pg, there's kids. " I smiled holding his shoulders. "How can I? you're beautiful. What about pg-13?" he winked. I shook my head flirty like and pushed off of him giggling. "Race you!" I called.
"Wait how much time do we have?" eddy asked as we reached the gates. "10 minutes?" I looked at my phone. "I will be in there in 10. I had a good day with you today. " He said grabbing my wrist and kissing me. I smiled pulling him closer. "Okay see you tomorrow. " He pulled away running back down the hill. I sighed confused and went inside.
"Where's Timmy?" I asked the leader after the end of group. "He had a bad relapse and was very emotional this morning." She said in a fake enthusiastic/ concerned voice. I nod and turn walking. I didn't see him that day and I really missed him.
"Timmy!" I called running outside. He was sitting by the flowers. I pranced on him causing him to fall back in the grass and I laid on top of him hugging him. "Well hello. " He told me laughing. "What happened, where were you?" I asked sitting upon his pelvis. He sat up staring at me. "I relapsed. " He whispered. "What do you mean?" I asked fiddling with the bottom of his shirt. "I relapsed when I left you the night we went out. Found my cousin and got high. After almost a year I did it again!" he said pulling his hair. I pulled his hands out his hair kissing him. "It's okay. You will beat this. " I told him. I could taste it on his lips. "You did it today didn't you?" I asked token back freezing into a awkward place. He couldn't answer. My lips turned numb and I touched them. "You did it today and let me kiss you?" I asked him intensely. I got up angrily. "I'm sorry. " He got up. I should've looked at him. Anyone who knew him could see he was different. I stood there as tears fell down my face. "I'm sorry Im sorry. " He held my shoulders. "Why would you do this?" I asked sniffling. "I haven't been happy karma!" he suddenly snapped. He walked back holding his face. "There! I said it. I'm not happy!" he sat back down at the garden. "What are you not happy with?" I walked in front of him. "When I left before..... my grandpa died. He was the only man who loved me. He never handed me drugs or alcohol and always wanted the best for me!" he cried. I sat down next to him. i rubbed his back. "Timmy. I love you. " I softly blurted. I hung my head feeling like reality hit both of us hard. Suddenly I felt a hand around my shoulder. "I love you too. " He kissed me as soon as I looked up. Our lips moved crazily and the drugs on this boys lips was making me high and the way his free hand groped me. Our tongues were in each other moths lapping up all the saliva it could. When we pulled away a long stream of saliva was between us. "Wow. " Timmy said amazed. "Yea. " I nod. He sat back. "look I'm moving away from you. " He said to the plants. I looked and his flower did seam more far from mine. "Yea. " I agreed. "Maybe I should fix that. " He smiled at me. He leaned over kissing me. He suddenly was in top of me unbuttoning my pants. "Timmy were outside no. " I giggle as he placed butterfly kisses on my neck. I tried to button my pants up but he swatted my hand off. "Everyone is in group. " He murmured and tried to put his hand in my underwear but I pushed him hard. "I said no!" I huffed buttoning my pants up. "Sorry. " He sat up. "I'm gonna get to group. " I stood up. "Okay. " He smiled smugly.
"Karma!" I heard my name called. I looked and it was Timmy. "Come to the garden!" he called. I put my shoes on and ran out. He was facing the garden. "What's going on?" I asked hugging him from behind. "Look. " He pointed. I followed his finger and there his plant was withered. "And look at yours. " He said. I looked and mine was also withered. He turned and have me a odd look. "Do you feel alright?" he asked. I nodded slow. "You?" I asked. "Yea! maybe they're just dumb flowers. " He laughed. "Yea." I nod but felt the flowers were some truth. Timmy held my face. "They're graduating me. " He suddenly said. "What?" I asked. "They think I'm no longer a addict. " He pushed his hand through his hair. "We'll tell them. " I told him holding the sides of his arm. "No. I want to leave now. I feel like a failure. " He tol me serious. "Did you use today?"i asked softly. he shook his head no. "Okay. " I smiled. "Yup. " He softly said lowering down and kissing me. I jumped on him so we could easily kiss and be eye leveled. He spinned and I giggled. theb he danced moving side to side. I held his face just giggling. I kissed his lips easily and they were sweet this time like we're on a honeymoon. " I adore you, you know that?" he asked with a smirk. I smiled laying my head to his. "Yea. " I nodded. i pressed my chest to his kissing him softly. "Well I have to go. I got a funeral to go to tonight. " He sighed. "Okay love you. " I kissed him making a loud sound. "Love you too. " He said with a smiled.
'Alright patients. Emergency meeting' the intercom blared. I got out of bed putting my shoes on. I raced out to the theater and everyone was there. I looked around for Timmy but I couldn't tell through the sea of people. I sat in the back as our leader stood up. "Everyone. This morning, our own Timmy Johnson suffered a overdose. " The lady said. Everyone gasped and I felt a internal sick feeling. "One of his family signed him out last night for one of his loved ones funeral and he was found dead this morning." She said. I got up swaying holding my stomach. I couldn't stop the tears falling down my face. "We will remember his bubbly attitude. He was always happy. " No he wasn't. He wasn't happy. I left and fell to the ground crying. "Karma. Let's talk. " Lady helped me up. "No let me be. " I pulled away from her running.
My feet took me to our garden. I fell into the grass and looked into the flowers. His laid withered into the damp soil while mine stood tall and unharmed. It was like both of ours did a 180... I cried pulling my hair off my sweaty head. "I'm so sorry. " I said clammy and fell back against the soft grass crying to myself.
