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Chapter 43
"Don't cry please" he said while getting closer. This immediate feeling started coming up. It always came at the most random times. I took a step back, not wanting to be very close. His voice echoed through my mind. Me screaming for him to stop. His beatings. His touch. Everything disgusted me. I felt disgusted. I put my hand on his chest and pushed him away, wanting nothing to do with it. I didn't want to go through it all again. But just before I could start breaking down, I felt my body being crushed into a wall. Arms surrounded my body, holding me very tight. This didn't hurt. This didn't feel disgusting. What was happening.. I should feel disgusted. I should feel hurt. I couldn't stop it. I couldn't stop myself from wanting that warmth. That is the moment I hugged him back, tightly, what felt like endlessly.
"Please, don't.." I whispered for the bad memories to go. I started yelling in my head at him. I wanted him to get out of my life. I wanted him to leave my mind. I wanted to forget the memories, forget the way he touched me that ruined my life.
"I won't. I won't hurt you" his beautiful voice said, but I wasn't buying it. I pushed him away with force, and he let go. I looked him in the eyes, seeing that his blue eyes turned into green, and his tall figure became shorter. His blond hair started to turn into black that was always well done. The angry look was plastered on his face, making him look even more scary. His-
"I am not him!" I heard coming out of his mouth. His mouth that said words that we-
"I am not him, dammit! Manar! Look at me, I am Kamal!" he said, coming closer. I closed my eyes, trying to block him out. As if my eyelids were a wall that was protecting me from him.
"Baby its me, Kamal, please.." I heard again. This time it was not his voice. This time it was a beautiful voice. The one that I got so used to. The one I shouldn't have in my life, but I knew that I couldn't stop it. I couldn't stop the beautiful and alive feeling I got when I heard his voice.
"Kamal.." I whispered, trying to make sure that it was him.
"Yes baby" he said back, grabbing my hands. I looked up at him, seeing his blue eyes again.
"Kamal.. You are Kamal.. not Nourdin.." I said over and over again. Kamal just looked me in the eyes, trying to hold a normal look. I knew how hard he was trying not to ask me, and I didn't want to tell him. Actually he knew what Nourdin had done in a way, though I had never told him bluntly. I just, I was happy that he was the one in front of me, and not Nourdin.
"Come, lets get you inside" he said while putting his arm around my shoulder making me turn around to get into the house. But just before we could get inside, a voice stopped me. A voice that I thought was a dream just a few seconds ago. A voice that I would like to kill, to never hear it again. Nourdin.
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