finding rose

finding rose (chapter 10)

ok there will be some Spanish in this chapter, so if you do not know Spanish I suggest you have a Spanish dictionary ready.

RECAP-

"congrats rose; you are now my slave, and I am your master, any bad behavior; and you WILL be punished. see you tomorrow morning."

with that he walked out of the room and shut the door but not before me hearing a click of a lock before his retreating footsteps. OH MY GOSH. WHAT THE HECK DID I GET MY SELF INTO????!!!!???

but..the thing was....that was all just a...

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Dream. A very very bad dream. when I woke up this morning; no leather straps were around me no metal pincher thangies were on the ground, no egg buzzers, no whips, no dog collars, no shock collar, no dog bowls, no max.

When I woke up this morning; yes I had a tear stained face, but when I woke up, it was Mary calling my name telling me to come down for breakfast. when I got downstairs a yummy looking plate of pancakes eggs and bacon sitting there with a bottle of syrup was waiting for me. every thing seemed just the same. I smiled at that thought. But then max came to mind.

I can't believe he would cheat on me with another girl! I started to tear up at that thought.

"Es every ting alright mi poco jardín?"

"no" I say. poco jardin means little garden in Spanish. since my name is rose she would can me her little garden since I was three and it kinda stuck. I know some Spanish words since I hang around and talk to Mary allot but I couldn't hold a conversation without having to look up words in a Spanish dictionary.

"what's Matta rosa?"

"max cheated on me last night." then I started to cry. Mary came closer to me then spreading her arms out wide motioning me to come closer so she could give me a hug.

"mi poor poco jardín." Mary mumbled into my hair. we stayed like that for five minutes before I pulled away and started wiping away my tears.

"Mary please don't let max in this house again. I don't ever want to see him."

"s you deseo." she said with a sigh." you going to have face tis problem soone or lata mi poco rosa."

"I know;" I said with a big sigh." I'm just hoping that it's later;" "or that it just disappears all in all." I mumbled underneath my breath.

"OH! marry before I forget; can you please tell the guards at the gate to not let max in? that would be great."

"si." she responded then started to ramble and mumble to herself in Spanish. I know some Spanish words; but when she gets like that I have no idea what she is saying. I just turned around and headed to the couch with my food. it was a little cold but that's my own fault.

I turned the t.v. on and started looking for my favorite show, sponge bob. I mean who doesn't love a little yellow sponge that talks! I was watching one of the older episodes where sponge bob is cooking and he bends his spatula in a really bad angle and he has to replace it for a long wile and it's like this brand new really fancy and shiny spatula with all kinds of buttons on it.

any ways when his spatula gets out of the hospital his spatula doesn't want to see him because he's been seeing another spatula. any ways he starts breaking down and crying a lake. sponge bob babbles about how sorry he is and the spatula finally takes him back. this certain episode reminds me so much of something; but I just can't put my finger on it, hmmmmmm...... oh yah! me.

But I'm not taking him back. nor do I intend to. that's just what happens. that's the way life goes. for me the real world came at me FAST and HARD when I was little. I was only six. and now I'm one heck of a messed up kid; but that's just the way life goes. I thought I would never love again after the last break up but then me and max....something just kinda clicked and....yah.....

But because of what happened with the relation ship before I thought I was never going to love again. my heart got colder and harder over the weeks that turned into months....but then max broke through and no matter how many walls I put up around my heart; he worked himself in there. and now that he has, he's shattered it just for his own pleasure of seeing me suffer. no more though. no one and I mean no one; is pushing me around any more. it's time I like by my own motto. 'it's my way; or the highway.' and my way does not include guys and in my little world; dating is no longer allowed or you get fed to my piranhas.

I stood up with a start and turned off the t.v. I walked up to the elevator. I really did not feel like taking the steps up all the way to the fifth floor. just too many stairs! once I got to my bedroom I started peeling all my clothes off me and hopped into the shower. once I was out of the shower I went and got dressed into a dark grey tank top that said on the front 'my piranhas are hungry!' and then I the back of the shirt it said 'so you better watch your back!'

I thought that this shirt fit my mood perfectly! I pulled on some light wash denim high waisted ripped short shorts then I put my hair up In a tight ponytail with a black head band. and then walked over to my phone which was charging all night. I clicked my phone on and saw that I had like a million angry texts from Max and then a few from my friends.

some of the text from Max were like 'B**ch! get back here!' or others like ' I swear rose if you don't come back in 2 minutes I'm coming after you to get you.' I texted him back 'go mess someone else up max; I'm done with you and your BS.'

I then called a bunch of my friends asking if any of them wanted to go to the mall. only 6 responded 2 saying they couldn't go. so I went with a small group. Lilly, Andie, Mandy , claire, and me. when I drove out of my drive way today. I drove with my head held high.