Darling, I'm what goes bump in the night

Helpful hints

Chapter 19

Helpful hints

End of the road- Boys 2 men

One month later

“Aura are you ready for this?” My boss, Bob, studies me.

After being summoned to his office I knew what to expect, now standing in front of him, it’s hard to keep it together. I try to keep my face expressionless and although I know I look perfect on the outside (I’m not that vain it’s just a chosen angel thing), on the inside I am a wreck. This last month has been hell on me, I’ve been on edge and restless. However, I’m not going to admit that to my boss.

I merely raise a brow at his question, “Are you questioning my ability to do my job?”

He snorts, “Come on Aura drop the act, I can see right through you.”

Sighing, I plop into the chair in front of his desk, “I can do my job, I know I haven’t been on my game this month but I’m good now.”

“You don’t have to do this; we can send someone else to take care of the Shadow King.” I’m shaking my head before he finishes.

“You know as well as I do that I have to defeat him, it’s my destiny.” I prop my feet up on his desk.

“Why don’t you just go and tell Chogan exactly how you feel?”

I shake my head, “I can’t, he hates me now for lying, I said such horrible things and I had to tell him he has to kill the woman he loves.”

“I think it’s funny how the people that look so perfect on the outside can be so broken on the inside. Sometimes I hate looking this way, so damn perfect.  I feel so fake; hell right now I should have bags under my eyes. I haven’t gotten any sleep for weeks and I still look perfect. My heart is so heavy; my head so confused, I’m starting to think that I didn’t even know what love was until I met Chogan. I’ve never felt this way about anyone, I thought I was in love with Marshal but now…I don’t know.” I put my head in my hands.

“Maybe you weren’t in love with him; maybe you were in love with the thought of being in love. I mean when you met Marshal you were having a hard time with life. He was nice and attractive; you needed someone more than a best friend so you made him more.” He stands and walks around the desk.

I sit quietly processing what he said. He was right, I think it went both ways, I mean we loved each other but only like siblings love each other. We should have been just friends and left it at that.

“Are you afraid?” He asks quietly.

“No, I’m regretful but not afraid; I shouldn’t have started something I know I wouldn’t be here long enough to go through with, it’s not fair to him. I don’t fear death.”

“There is a chance that you will make it. But…I’ll miss you if you don’t.” He bows his head.

“Thank you Bob, I’ll miss you too.” I stand and hug him tightly.

“Anything, and Baby doll I really think you should tell him before it’s too late.” He squeezes me tightly before shooing me out the room.

*Chogan’s Point of view*

I walk into the kitchen and everyone stops talking. Ignoring them, I grab a soda out of the refrigerator and walk out the back door. I walk around aimlessly for a while trying not to think about Aura. As much as I hate to admit it, I miss her. Her smile, her laugh, her sassy attitude, I miss holding her and being myself around her. She sees through my bullshit and she’s not afraid to call me on it. I run my fingers through my hair, I really messed it up with her.

“Chogan, wait up,” Ky jogs to catch up with me.

“I want my brother back.” Ky says softly, starring up at the sky.

“What are you talking about?” I snap, walking faster.

“You know what I mean, why don’t you just ask Honey where she is and go to her? Tell her how you really feel.”

I turn and face him, “Look I don’t need this.”

He snorts, “Someone needs to tell you because you seem too dumb to get it yourself. It’s been a month and all you’ve done is mope around and snap at people, get over yourself and tell Aura how you feel.”

“It’s not that easy!” I snap.

“Do you still love Alana?” He crosses his arms over his chest.

I sneer, “No I don’t.”

“Do you love Aura?”

“Yes with all my heart,” I answer without hesitation.

“Then it is that easy, stops being a wimp and tell her how you feel.” He slaps me on the back and walks away.

I watch him walk away smiling, when did my little bro get so smart.