Darling, I'm what goes bump in the night

New feelings

Chapter 6

New feelings

Chapter song: Everybody's free to feel good! (Romeo and Juilet sondtrack)

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Chapter 6

New feelings

"Here is your room I hope you will be comfortable here." Nick says kindly.

"It's beautiful, thank you." I say as he exits the room.

I walk to the bed and fall back into it. I sigh and snuggle up into the blankets, the talk had gone better than I thought it would.

Someone knocks at my door.

"Come in" I yell, thinking it was Honeybunch.

That's why I was surprised when Chogan walks into the room and closes the door.

"Hi I was wondering if we could talk?" he shifts from foot to foot nervously.

"Yeah, here have a seat." I say and pat the spot next to me.

He hesitates and then sits.

"So what did you want to talk about?"

"Well again I want to say again how sorry I am about earlier." he drags his hand through his hair and blows out a breath.

"I also want to know what you meant when you said forget the pain you felt in the dream. What did you mean by that?" he cocks his head to the side.

"Well you said that you see it every night in your dreams, dreams sometimes are worst when you have a nightmare about something that has already happened. Your mind adds detail that you might not have noticed before because it didn't occur to you to look closer the first time. So you beat yourself up about it and also in your dreams things tend to be scarier than they really were."

"You seem to know a lot about dreams." he stately lightly.

I take the hint.

"When I first died I kept having nightmares about the crash, so I did research on dreams to see if there was something wrong with me."

That was kind of the truth, I mean I didn't want to lie to him but I wasn't about to tell him that I wasn't dead when I started to have that dream it was after Marshal was killed.

He nods and sits there awkwardly.

"Well thanks that was what I wanted to talk to you about so I'll just leave now." he stands suddenly.

"Ok have a good night." I say as he shuts the door behind him.

I lean back against the door and take a deep breath. I always get a tingly feeling in the pit of my stomach when Chogan is around. It felt kinda nice. I mean I had that feeling with Marshal but it wasn't that strong. I walk over to the bed sit down and put my head in my hands. I shouldn't have these feeling for anyone, especially one of my charges.

"You got yourself some trouble don't you?" I jump at the sound of my boss' voice.

"You really need to stop doing that." I say annoyed.

"This is my way of keeping you on your toes." he smirks.

"Ha ha very funny." I said sarcastically.

He chuckles then his face turns serious, I feel my shoulders hunch.

"Aura you know it's not against to rules to feel this way about your charge, but you have to be careful, especially with what you tell him about yourself. You're not just any chosen angel you're the chosen angel, the one who is suppose to change the world." he sits next to me.

I sigh.

"I know I know I will change the world forever." I say sarcastically.

"Why do you try to fight what you are, Aura?" I stand and pace.

"Because that's not who I am, I'm not special and I won't change the world, I'm not the chosen one!"

Bob stands and studies me.

"You will do more then you could ever imagine don't fight what you feel for Chogan, it won't make it any better."

With that Bob stands and dissolves in to nothing.

I sigh and walk over to the chair that I had set my bag in and look inside searching for my journal. I walk over to the bed pull out my green pen, open up to the next empty page and uncap my pen.

May 9

I got through the day without a panic attack although I was close to having one. I can't go a day without thinking of Marshal but I am dealing with it better now. I feel this strange attraction to Chogan and no matter how much I fight it I still feel drawn to him. I can tell he is still in a lot of pain over what happened to him, I can't imagine what it would be like to have someone you loved and trusted, try and kill your family. I feel bad because I know what is going to happen and I don't think he is ready for it. Having to kill her will be hard no matter what he says, I know he still loves her. I don't know what I have gotten myself into but I don't think it's going to end well.

Aura

I close my journal, put the cap back on the pen and put everything back in my bag. I fall back on the bed with a sigh, I don't think I'm ready to love again, but I don't think I have a choice. I don't want to get hurt again or hurt him and I don't think I can be what he needs. I don't think I am capable of loving him the way he deserves. I sigh again and close my eyes, slowly letting myself drift into dreamland.