Babymama. (Lesbian Story)

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Camille's doctor appointment this morning DID NOT go as I expected. I didn't even know how to process the information I was given. But more importantly I didn't know how I was going to tell Macabre. She was probably suspicious anyways, I ended up being at the doctor's office for 3 hours. When the doctor told me he wanted to do an MRI on Camille I didn't think much of it. I've had MRI's done before for petty stuff. After Camille woke up from being sedated, Dr. Hakim walked in the room like one of those plague doctors with the bird masks. His presence felt so dark, I could tell he didn't have good news.
Camille had a large tumor in her brain. It had been developing for some time now which is why shes had this aggressive fever. I scheduled an appointment for her to get the tumor removed & tested. For the time being, the doctor prescribed her some medication to relieve her feverish symptoms, hoping to make her a bit more comfortable. It felt like somebody had ripped my heart out of my chest & threw it into open flames. I wanted to just cry & cry, never to stop. How could this happen? What did I do wrong? Why did my baby deserve this? I was scared, I didn't want to lose my daughter. She was only a baby, she had things to do and places to see. She deserved to live out her life. But I couldn't be so pessimistic, it could very well be benign.

Max could see the somber look on my face as soon as I walked through the door. I put the baby in her crib & gave her some medicine before I faced Max. She was with her sister sitting on the couch. I couldn't seem to get my feet to take me any closer to her. I stopped in the archway of the living room & just stared at the both of them while the knot in my throat was preventing me from speaking.
"Hey baby, come sit down." Max coos.
I shook my head no, mostly because I couldn't even move. She got up & came over to me, pulling me over to the couch.
"Talk to me, why does your face look like that?" Max pressed.
"I gotta tell you something. But you gotta stay calm," I explained.
"You're scaring me, Nani."

My eyes flooded with tears & I could tell I was only scaring Max further.
"The doctor found a tumor in Camille's brain." I remarked.

Slowly Max broke down, her body went limp. I caught her before she fell to the ground & Masaccio helped me support her weight. She didn't even give me the chance to explain everything before she bugged out. I can't blame her though; hearing your 1 year old daughter has a tumor in her brain is heart wrenching. When the doctor gave me the news I just about threw up.
Max wouldn't stop sobbing so I brought her up to our room & put her in bed. I further explained what the doctor had told me, that it still had to be removed & tested but nothing eased her pain. She sobbed & sobbed until she ran out of energy. Max eventually fell asleep after tiring herself out.
Upon coming back downstairs, I found Masaccio whipping up something in the kitchen. Whatever it was it smelled poppin'.
"Is she okay?" Masa questioned.
"She tired herself out, shes sleeping." I replied.
"I feel so bad, I know how much she loves her daughter."
"How you think I feel? Thats my baby too,"
"I know, I'm so sorry."

Masa embraced me as more tears began to fall from my eyes. I don't understand why God was doing this to us. We don't deserve this bullshit.

***

I had a meeting this morning at the Miami office. To be very honest, I didn't even pay attention to what was going on. I just sat there, staring into space. After the meeting was adjourned I was the last to get up & leave. Terra was also at the meeting since it was about her upcoming album. I guess she noticed I was out of focus & she came up to me.

"Hey Puanani," She greeted me.
"Oh hey, how are you?" I answered.
"Are you alright?"
"I'm cool,"
"You don't seem cool. Is there something bothering you? I know we haven't talked in a while but you seem really out of it."
"I just have a lot on my mind with this album release party for you,"
"My party has you feeling this way?"
"I just have a lot I'm responsible for, just taking its toll on me."
"Stop lying to me, you can trust me. Tell me whats wrong," Terra pleaded.
"I'll be alright, T. Don't worry about it," I replied.

Terra rolled her eyes, finally giving up. I just didn't want to talk about Camille right now, especially not with Terra. I didn't need another reason for Max to be upset. But Terra just didn't want to give up on me today. She followed me out to the parking lot & leaned up against my car refusing to move. She basically demanded that I take her to get some coffee. This little girl had lost her ever loving mind.
"Can you please remove yourself from my car?" I remarked.
"Why you being so mean to me?" Terra questioned.
"I'm not trying to. I just don't have time to fuck around today."
"What you gotta go do?"
"My daughter went in for surgery this morning, Terra. -- Shit,"

A look of guilt fell upon Terra's face. I could tell she felt like an asshole now.
"I'm sorry, I didn't know." Terra plead.
"Its cool, I just gotta go. You can call me later, aight?" I explained.

Terra moved out of the way & I sped off. I had to meet Mac at the hospital. I had to be there for her while Cami underwent her surgery. Mac hadn't slept or gotten any kind of rest since I told her. She paced back & forth in the living room all night. She smoked a whole Q of bud without stopping. Even as high as she was she still didn't sleep. You could see the look of pure stress on her face. I felt horrible because I basically couldn't do anything to help her. Nothing was going to make her feel better about this situation. Our only hope was that the tumor was nothing dangerous.

Mac rested her head on my shoulder, which was the most relaxation she's had in the last 18 hours. I hoped she'd fall asleep and finally escape her dismay.
"When I met you, I never thought we would ever be in any kind of situation like this." She remarked.
"Welp, join the club." I replied.

My phone vibrated in my pocket so hard that it scared me & Mac. I checked to see a text from Terra. What did she want?

Hey, I know ur rlly stressed out rn! I jst copped some really nice blow. Maybe u coud come 2 my apartment & help urself 2 some! I'm sure it'll help de-stress u. xoxo

Oh God. Now I'm tempted. I definitely needed a stress reliever right about now. But I needed to be supportive of my family today. I couldn't just bail out while Cami was in the middle of surgery. So I didn't reply to Terra's message right away. I waited until Camille was out of surgery & they were taking her down to recovery. I had to take sometime to think about it, I didn't want to get hooked again but I was losing my mind. What was I going go do? How was I going to sneak out of here undetected? This was all just too much for my little brain to proccess.