I watch all the people I see. This time, it's people I know. Everyone is eating together after my funeral. They're smiling through their tears. I don't ever remember feeling this lovely warmth. Then it stops and I'm in the stars again. I still have my body. The spiritual one that is. Im standing on a star, and I have a sense of time. I can see all the planets. It's beautiful. I'm scared, though.
I'm more transparent than I was before. I'm still warm though. I'm starting to just know things. I won't be here forever. I'll actually be gone quite soon. Many people think that there's an afterlife. Heaven or Hell. Not for me. I bet the old man I met is already gone. In the end, you fade away. Nothing more. Everything forgotten. In the end, you choose how you love your life. No one else can. The kindness you show others is really the only thing that gets them through when they're dead. Who knows, maybe you come back someday a little wiser than you were before. I really feel like this is the end.
It's been a day or so. I start floating toward the sun.
I twirl around in circles; arms outstretched and face toward the sun. My eyes are shut and the cold breeze whooshes over my face. I hear my sister laugh as she chases bubbles through the yard, trying to beat our dog, Max to them. I sit in the dark green grass. It tickles my legs. The memory of the smell of charcoal in my nose mixes with the smell of perfume and freshly mowed lawns. I sigh and fall backwards, laying in the grass as if it's winter and I'm going to make a snow angel. I can hear mom call out, "Come and eat!" With her big, white, smile. Though, I can no longer feel her. Or any of this memory. I can't feel anything. Anymore.
I think it's days like that I miss the most.
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Tears in the Stars
Teen FictionWhat would you do if you lost everything, even memories, and didn't know how or why? What if all you saw were stars, and you were lost? What if you didn't know your name? Join a young (or is she old?) woman on her journey of memories and futures to...
