Complicated

Chapter 24- Oh Briar

May be upsetting for some readers.

Myles' pov
"Well I'm not going to hang around here. I have to see her." I say as I go and grab my bag from my cubby hole.
"Me too." Abbey says and does the same as me.
"I'm her best friend." Jessy says and grabs her back.
"Can you guys tell Alain where we've gone? Just say that Briar hurt her ankle again." I say and start walking through the doors.
"Sure." Brooklyn says.
"Thanks." Jessy says.

"Who's car should we go in?" Abbey asks.
"Mine." I say.
"Why yours?" Jessy asks.
"Because I know that Briar loves my car and if she can come home, then she'll want to be in my car." I say as we all get in.
"True. Anyway, Abbey, what happened?" Jessy asks as I start driving.
"I don't want to talk about it." Abbey says with tears dripping down her face.
"Oh come here Abs." Jessy says and hugs her.
She kept telling her that Briar is going to be ok. All I could think about is what if Briar isn't going to be ok?

Once we arrive at the hospital, we sprint out of the car to reception.
"Briar Nolet." I say.
"Room twenty three." The lady says and points in the right direction.
We run down the corridor until we get to Briar's room.
"Wait." Abbey says before we go in.
"What?" Jessy asks.
"I think that only one of should go in at a time." She replies.
"Well who should it be?" I ask.
"You." They both say at the same time to me.
"Why me?" I ask.
"Let's be honest, Briar trusts you the most and will listen to you. Besides, we can't kiss her to make her feel better." Abbey says with a wink.
"Ok." I say with a faint smile and slowly push the door open and walk in.

I look at the figure asleep on the bed. Of course it was Briar, but it wasn't. The Briar I know is happy, confident and full of sparkle. This Briar is full of pain, sadness and anxiety. I love her no matter what but Abi has really changed her. I wish I never dated the monster. I feel like I made this happen, it's my fault. If I hadn't dated Abi, then I wouldn't have dumped her. If I hadn't dumped her for Briar, then she wouldn't bully Briar. Why didn't I just date Briar? Why didn't I realise that dating Abi was a huge mistake.

I approach the bed and sit down on the white chair next to it. I scan her up and down until I reach her left wrist. In pen is written 'I want to die' and there are cuts all over it. Briar actually did self harming. She got a knife and cut her wrist. I can't even begin to imagine the shock and horror that Abbey was in when she found Briar. Why do I feel like this is my fault so strongly? No this is Abi's fault, not mine. I can't blame myself.

"Hi Briar, it's me Myles. I know that you can't hear me right now but I just wanted to say that I love you no matter what. If I lose you, I'll lose myself. I don't think that I could ever live with myself. I just wish I was with you. I could've prevented this. Briar, I'm so sorry that this happened to you." I say, now with tears running down my cheeks.
I forgot to mention- I never cry. Why am I crying? Because I'm sad? Yes but want to know the real reason? Seeing the person you love most hurt.