Dear No One | Jeon Jungkook

Chapter 5

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September 7, 11:08 pm

nam seolhee.

One of the things I hate the most is when people lie to me.

Well, I know everyone hates liars and that's a well-known fact. But it's just one of the things I detest the most. Everything related to lies— infidelity, disloyalty, untrustworthy, all these adjectives are what I believe the most contemptible in a person. I don't want to spend the rest of my life living with someone full of lies, and this is on of the reasons why I couldn't accept what Jungkook. had told me,

I'm still flustered about what the Jungkook guy told me a few hours ago. I'm obviously not beautiful inside out. I'm mean, ugly, miserable and tormented. My life is already crushed ever since I was born. It's all simple and understood, I'm most imperfect being there is. The thought of the words that came out of his mouth were all sick lies, I disagree with what he said so much.

But what bugged me the most is that he wasn't the first one to tell me that.

Sigh. Get over it Seolhee, he probably says that to everybody.

Geez. That guy is probably too nice. Probably too nice to trust.

My hand landed on my scarred cheek, feelings its soft stinging pain that exists still now. It happened about half an hour ago when my mom had a sharp chef's knife on her hand. She aimed to cut my wrist open but after many tries of trying to stop her, she accidentally wounds my cheek instead. She was satisfied, anyway, and now she's locked in her room.

I still remember what he told me.

He used to always tell me to trust him, and I always did with no doubt. He made me feel things I never felt before and took me to places I've never been. He was everything to me and I thought that all the things we had together were a product of love. But after all I knew none of it was true. He was all that I hated. He was once of the worst things that turned me into this, a messed up teenager. Teenagers shouldn't be like this, they say, teenagers shouldn't spend their puny years thinking about being suicidal and depressed as fuck.

Teenagers are all about wrong ideas of love, thousands of casual flings, even one night stands, hanging out with the wrong crowd, and belonging to a stereotypical group. I was part of those shitty things that a person experiences in being a teenager, and I knew I learned from them. That's all because of him.

He told me he will never try to hurt me.
He told me to believe in him.
To trust him.
I did.

That's what was wrong about me.

I was too naïve and helpless that all the people I've learned to trust aren't always there for me. They're all just playing with you. One minute, they'll get your affection and the next second, they'll play with your feelings and throw you away. I was desperate for love and never learned the meaning of it. Why not? It was probably because I have never felt it, I never learned about it, and I was never interested, until this stupid guy came.

Dear No One,

Donggyu is back again to kill me.

I saw him back in school today, and my classmates told me he's threatening to kill me. I didn't know what to do, I just cried, lost my mind until this guy helped me.

- SH

It was Donggyu who I saw earlier that had that menacing glare directed at me. I was appalled, speechless and completely horrified. It didn't take me a while to fully examine his expression. I couldn't even explain what I saw. He just looked so mad, as if he had a raging grudge against me. Why? Is it because of what I did? What I thought was right?