Love they say is One step at a time..you can't hurry it nor you can't force it. It is something that you want to take slowly but surely and Love is a feeling you put actions on, whether its small or big as long as you give your best into it.
Love i...
(A/N: Ayayay, kumusta weekend nyo mga ka-tropa? Di naman kayo nilanggam noh? Ang daming ganap last week sa weeklong celebration ng birthday ni Meng, ang saya lang. Na-Lss ako sa kantang Waiting for Love and Mirror, kayo rin ba?
I'm posting two stories for tonight, nauna na po yung Scared to Death, hope you enjoy reading it :D This story is somehow within Maine's point of view.)
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"Itong huling gift ko, pag handa ka na sabihin mo sa akin, dahil ako mismo ang magsusuot nito sa'yo,"
I stared at him, what he said sent a peaceful bliss effect on me. Am I hearing what I thought he was saying?Sigurado ka ba sinasabi mo Richard? Ayokong umasa dahil alam kong masasaktan ako pero he's saying it with so much honesty, as if he is so certain of the imminent future. His face bare an overwhelming emotion of steadiness like his telling me that he decided and its final, an unwavering faith that I will be his last.
Pero tao pa rin ako, babae, my heart tells me to trust him, believe in him but my mind tells me to think things over. Walang kasiguraduhan ang mga pangako, Meng. Walang permanente sa mundong ibabaw. Oras na sumugal ka, its either sasaya ka o iiyak ka.
I bowed my head, tease him and said, "Hindi ba natin pwedeng i-share?" I repeated that question to ease me and my heart but you insisted that the gift wasn't meant for the public to see.
"Message ko sa'yo. Alam ko marami tayong nagiging distractors, at dahil sa mga distractors na yun pati tayo hindi nagkakaintindihan. So gusto ko lang sabihin sa'yo na lahat gagawin ko, yung mga wish mo, wish mo sa akin, wish mo para sa ating dalawa gagawan ko ng paraan yan Meng, saka kahit nasaan ka pa, darating ako,"
I wanted to kiss you right there and then, Richard kung alam mo lang. Parang sasabog ang puso ko sa lahat ng sinabi mo. You really have a way with words and to be honest I accepted everything that you said. Pero ayan ka na naman, dinadaan mo ako sa matatamis mong salita.
Kasama ba ako sa binubuo mong kinabukasan Tisoy? Lahat ba ng meron tayo ngayon, meron pa rin pa bukas o sa makalawa o sa mga susunod na taon? Sinasabi mo ba sa aking you will always be there for me? Will you be a constant love that will endure everything for me? Is this last gift of yours represent a happy life with you? Ito ba ang bagay na panghahawakan ko na even after 5 years or 10 years, ikaw pa rin at ako?
I thanked you for your gifts. I really appreciate every effort you put into it.
"Meron pa akong isang surprise, ni-rehearse ko to ha," you said beaming and you started singing the song Mirror. Your song choice didn't help my confused emotional state, it actually makes me feel hopeful again.
Maybe, just maybe, I was wrong and you were right. Maybe, I'm holding myself back from you for no apparent reason. Siguro may nararamdaman ka talaga sa akin at ako lang ang ayaw maniwala. May mga pagkakataon na rin sigurong nahihirapan ka na rin dahil ang tigas ng ulo ko. Siguro sinubukan mo na ring sumuko dahil sa uri ng buhay na meron tayo.
"Ang chorus niyan, kanta ko for you.....totoo," I told him as he was approaching the chorus part.
I don't wanna lose you now
I'm looking right at the other half of me
The vacancy inside of my heart
Is a space that now you hold
The moment you genuinely sing the chorus to me with your eyes locked on mine was also the moment of confirmation that I longed for 7 months now. And if what I saw in your eyes is what you feel for me then who am I to doubt you, right?
If what you feel for me is True Love, then I only need the courage to accept that Love. Anuman ang mangyari, magbago man ang lahat. Mawala man ang mga bagay na meron tayo ngayon, ang panghahawakan ko lang ay ang pangako mo, itong regalo mo na for my eyes only at ang pagmamahal na sinasabi mo, wala ng iba.
Magiging matapang akong magmahal, susugal ako. Kung kinakailangang umiyak, ehh di iiyak ako, pero wag mo namang ipahintulot Tisoy, ha. Uupakan muna kita bago mangyari yun. Tatanggapin ko lahat ng bagay na darating basta andyan ka.
Magiging matapang ako, para sa'yo, Richard Faulkerson Jr.
