sunshine ☆彡 seokmin

twenty

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     The social workers came after three weeks and I had to tell them about what happened. They leave and I'm alone again, but waiting for Seokmin to come since he has to tell me something.

Chan gave me his number last week when they all slept over and I couldn't stop blushing. Seokmin tried to help Seungcheol make some breakfast but we ended up having to turn off the burning detectors.

Today will make it five weeks since I've started talking to Seokmin and I wanted to give him something.

My aunt left a few minutes ago and I finally feel how lonely everything really is; my aunt, our house, me. My crippling fear of being forgotten and abandonment makes me want to go inside but it's all the same.

The van pulls up and I put on the smile that I want to put on, just for Seokmin, but it freezes when all the doors open. That van. What—

I know one of them is Chan because he runs up to me just as I am getting up and wraps me in a hug. Why doesn't he care about my size? Why don't they care about my size? Why don't they care about how big I am?

It's all of them. Every single one of the boys. Where is my aunt? This is illegal, right? Oh, my God. 

I'm wrapped in more arms and I don't know what to say. Why did they come? My birthday was almost two months ago, so it can't be today... Wait, who am I kidding? Why am I so selfish?

Incoherent Korean meets my ears and now I don't even know who's holding me. I can't believe any of this. The fact that they care—I don't know—means a lot, and them, of all people. 

I look up and see the bottoms of everyone's faces. Seungcheol looks down and gives me a cute smile as he pushes a few of the boys away from me. 

They all crouch down around me and I'm just standing here in my hoodie and XXXL sweatpants. I don't have any shoes but the bottoms sure do look like them. Where's Seokmin?

"Sunshine," I hear and pause, turning around to see him right there with that bright smile of his. Man, I don't think I could possibly ever get sick of that.

The other boys are both staring and talking so I shrug my shoulders as Seokmin takes my hand and sits me down on the porch, like we've been doing for the past week. 

He won't stop smiling and he's sitting closer to me than usual. The rest inevitably come and sit on the porch, too. I'm waiting for the porch to break. It can't take more than a thousand pounds. 

"S-Seokmin—" I start because the level of confusion I feel is insane but he brings his finger to my lips, and let me tell you; it feels nice there. God, I'm sweating again.

He shakes his head and his hair bounces as he trails his finger to my hair, brushing my bangs away from behind the lenses of my glasses.

This boy leans in close and my eyes widen the closer he gets to me. Is he going to kiss me? I hope he is. Oh, my God. Why am I thinking about this?

He rubs my cheeks with his thumbs as he cups my face and I smile, letting him know how much I adore the things he does. Perhaps, I adore him, too.

No, hold on—

"Maxima," he looks down and I can't see his smile anymore, "We're leaving to Korea, and this time, I'm not playing." He looks up at me and he isn't smiling anymore, just as I feared. Neither am I.

Soonyoung laughs nervously and quietly adds, "Surprise!"

Jeonghan smacks him in the arm and Wonwoo glares, making the situation even more tense. 

Seungcheol sighs and I turn to him, hoping that somehow he's just joking. He shakes his head and meets my eyes with a fatigued gleam in his eyes. Jeonghan grabs onto his hand and the angelic guy tries to give me a smile. Thank you.

I turn back to Seokmin and nod my head, clenching my jaw before reaching for what I had planned to give him. " H-here, then." I say and don't look him in the eye when I drop the box in his hands. He gasps really loudly when he opens it and squirms around.

It's a chicken leg plushie and a $25 gift card for ice cream, along with some new headphones. It's not his birthday, but...

"You mean a lot to me."  I say and cover my mouth. Now, that wasn't supposed to come out.

Seokmin pulls me into yet another hug and I already feel time running out, like I'm going to die or something. That's how it's going to feel like, right?

I wrap my arms around him, just like I had the first time I met him. "Aww...eotteohge gwiyeoun!" Jeonghan says and I close my eyes.

Yet another existenial crisis for Max. God, my life sucks in the worst moments.

"We leave on Sunday." He utters and I whimper. It's Friday.

I bury my head into the crook of his neck as I stand on my knees. I am the luckiest, most unfortunate person around. What Is Love, by EXO, am I right? I laugh quietly and hold him a little longer.

He is my sunshine. My only sunshine.