I haven't really been in the mood lately. I'm really sick of going to my classes and having those girls who are like perfect.
Now I sound selfish but they give me looks and I heard what they have said. People are cruel.
I got to my apartment and got all of my stuff done that I had too. Collage, sucks.
I was surprised that I had all of my homework done before 6, and I didn't have to work today. Good times.
Anyways I started cleaning my house. My boyfriend Cameron soon comes through the door.
"Hi babe" he said kissing me.
"Hi, how was your day?" I asked as he took his shoes off putting them on the rug by the door.
"Alright, how was yours?" He asked. I finished cleaned up the living room. "Same" I told him as I went to put the cleaning supplies away.
I went up to my room and changed into under armor shorts and a t shirt.
Then I went back down stairs too go look and see what we had for dinner.
Cameron comes in from the living room. "What sounds good?" I asked.
"You" he said straight faced.
I laughed. "Stop, what do you want for dinner?" I asked once I started to stop laughing.
"Let's go out to eat" he says.
"That means I have to change" i groaned.
"No you don't" he said as he closed the fridge I held open. "Yes I do, where do you want to go?"
"How about we go into a drive in restaurant" he suggested. "Alright let's go" I said as I grabbed my purse and phone putting on a pair of my Nikes.
We left and went to a drive in restaurant. We both got a chili cheese dog and he ordered a malt to split.
I ate my hotdog slowly.
"Are you okay?" He asked. "Yeah I'm good"
"You look like you don't feel good" he told me looking into my eyes.
"Just tired" I told him. I eventually finished my hotdog and put my trash on the tray. "Babe, are you going to eat your fries?" He asked me.
"No I'm full you can have them or take them home for later whatever you want" I said as I drank water.
"You love the fries here" he said lightly.
"I'm just full" I said trying not to get into a bigger conversation about it.
He finished his food shortly after. He got the bill and I gave him some change. "Thank you" I said as we pulled out to go back home.
"What's going on?" He asked as he drove. "Uhh nothing" I said confused.
"You like didn't eat, didn't drink any malt, and you love that place" he explained.
"I just got full fast I guess" I said trying to make it sound convincing.
"okay" he replied as he kept driving.
He put his hand on my thigh and I got really tense. He gave me a confused look but continued driving.
When we got home we both went to my room and laid down. He started kissing me and we really got into it.
His hand started going up my shirt and pulled it away a bit.
Then his hand went down to my thigh and I pulled it away again. He stopped. "Babe, what are you doing?" He asked as he started to sit up straight.
"I'm sorry I just don't think I'm up for anything other than kissing right now." I said as I sat up as well as playing with my fingers.
"Did you just start your period?" He asked concerned. "No I guess I'm just not feeling good with it right now" I said more as a question.
"Y/n you won't even let me touch you, why?" He asked me and he grabbed one of my hands.
"I just don't want you to be disappointed" I told him. "By what? You are perfect to me" he said.
"Cam I'm far from that. I just don't want you to not like how I am." I said.
"Y/n we have had sex before, actually we have had it many times. Just be straight up with what you are trying to get to" he told me staying calm.
"I've gained weight Cameron, I'm not like the girls you see when you go out. I'm bigger" I told me looking down.
He got off the bed and pulled me up so I was standing in front of him.
"The only bigger that I've see is bigger boobs and butt to be honest" he said.
"But that just means I can't be a size zero, there's always jiggle" I tried to explain.
The ran his hands down my sides. "I wish you seen yourself through my eyes. Through my eyes I think your body is beautiful. You got these curves like crazy, it's so great. I love holding all of this at night. And to me you are so little. You are so much shorter than me, and you wear my shirts and sweats and they are big but you boobs and butt pop out and then look great on you. Baby you're gorgeous. To be completely honest I would rather have a girl with a big butt over a girl who acts like she does but has nothing." He told me as his hands were all over me.
"Awe cam" I said as I hugged him. "Baby girl you're so fine to me, I cringe when you stop me from letting me do what I want to you" he says as he sets me back down on the bed.
"Oh geeze" I laughed as we laid back down.
