Niall Horan Imagines

New Flame PT 3

After the meeting this little miss desperate I got in my car thinking about how i am going to be able to get Niall his phone back. I could always leave it at the front desk for him or I can just give it to him myself since I have a head start. I decided to go ahead to give it to him.

I used Twitter to find his location & I drove there. It's sad how Twitter is a GPS but it's good for me in this case. I called Big P ,who's Niall head security , to tell him that I have his phone and I want to return it to him. I explained everything to him & he understood everything.

When I reached the hotel surprisingly there wasn't any paps around but just because I didn't see them doesn't mean they can't see me.

Big P met me downstairs to take me up to see my infamous ex.

" we need to talk" Niall said

I walked in and took a seat on the couch so we could talk. Niall followed suit & sat so we can talk.

"I can't stay long" I said firmly

"I'm sorry about Lily, I'm sorry for how things ended with us & im sorry about the trouble you had to go through for this. "

"Apology accepted" I said I said firmly. We then looked at each other for a moment and then he looked away.

"I trust you will have her in check for the next time" I said

"It won't be a next time" Niall promised

"I wouldn't be too sure......what are you doing with her? Building her career? What you are getting s bonus from Uncle Si & his many branch companies ?"  I pick with him.

"She was interesting that was all. I don't really care for her." Niall said

"Shocking" I said

"You are not shocked" he said  walking away from me to get a beer and then coming back to sit next to me

"Can't say that I am. I'd be lying if it wasn't for me knowing you it's shocking coming from you. I thought I changed but you are definitely not the Niall I use to know" I said simply

"That maybe true, but what it does change anything about us" Niall said.

"How so?" I asked knowing the answer. I'm just curious to what he would say.

"You know how much I really cared for you, I still do & I don't think that's ever going to change. " he said

"I know" I said

"Just cause you are someone who I value & cherish, not granted I was rubbish towards the end & I regret that, but the fact still remains that I care about you & I never said this to you but I love you. I love you enough to not have you around me right now, that way I can't hurt you more than I have already done . I love you enough to hope that one day once I get this all out of my system I could come out strong & maybe you will take me back. Just maybe" Niall said

"You finally gave me the answers I was looking for.......thank you" I said

"What was the a answer?" He questioned.

"I finally figured out it that I was always myself. You just admitted you loved me. So that means I was myself during  the entire relationship. I was scared I wasnt" I said

"You were & don't change" Niall said

"I know you don't want to be the one I want you to be. So thank you for knowing that & letting me go"

"Thank you for letting me go too. I know it wasn't easy but atleast now you know." Niall said

"I never thought in a million years that we could have this kind of conversation" I said

"I've been wanting to talk to you. I hate that what I am doing always seems to bring you in a mess of things. I don't want you to hate Me" Niall said seriously

"Now that I know what I know now. I won't hate you" I said

It was a moment of silence between us. I was just thinking to myself that I am so happy I have the answers that I needed. I knew for Niall just go flip and change on me at the end of the relationship something in him clicked & I couldn't figure it out. For awhile I was just in denial about how I didn't care , I am focused on me & not worried about him. But I never realized how it weighed me down so much than what I was willing to admit. This talk just lifted the weight I felt off of me.

"I should go, I know the girls are waiting for Me" I said

"Ok " Niall said as he stood to his feet to meet my heigh. He opened his arms out to me to hug him.

"Just because 2 people love each other doesn't mean that it's there find to be together. Love & life is a circle. Everything will come back to you" I said as I was in his embrace .

Many might say this is complicated but I've grown to know men & this is just what they do. Commit then retreat at this age. I love Niall & maybe when he gets this all out of the out off his system maybe there's hope for us.