Niall Horan Imagines

Umm

I'm nervous every about brunch with Niall. He's coming over so we can talk about what shouldn't have happened a week ago. 

We hooked up. We took advantage of each other & we went too too too far.

So that's why we are gathering together to talk about that & help settle all of the crazy thoughts I have in my head about losing the only person who's been my moral support throughout everything I've been going through.

The doorbell just rung letting me know he's here. I walked over to the door taking deep breathes & releasing as I got the door. I don't know why I so nervous. It's only Niall.

"Hey" I said with smile

"Hey " he said coming into but not entering without hugging me first.

After our hug he walked in & went right to the kitchen.

"Food smells delicious" he said anxiously.

"Thanks, you want me to fix your plate?" I offer

"Sure" he said

I made a plate with everything, a omelette, a few pieces of bacon , a cinnamon roll, potatoes, & a bunch of his favorite fruits. I made a plate just like his for myself. After that I made mimosas for us.

We sat in the lounge room where we began to eat in silence.  Until Niall with a mouth full of potatoes broke the silence.

"I love the potatoes, you make them differently now. I like how you spiced them up " he said & I laugh a bit because I really thought he was going to say something else.

Maybe this is my que to start talking about what I want to talk about.

"Thank you chef Niall, I hope that I dont get chopped tonight" I said making a joke. We like to watch the cooking channel together on days  we declare stay in the house & do nothing days.

Niall laughed lightly at my joke.

"If I didn't know any better I feel like you are manipulating & distracting me from what we really need to talk about. How long are we going to keep not talking about it?" Niall says more than questions

"I have every intention to talk about it." I said

"What happened last week I take responsibility for everything. I was really irresponsible." He said

"It's not your fault Niall. I've been going through so much, I've been putting my weight on you because you have always been there for me & it's not fair. I have been all about myself. I never intended to be that kind of friend to put you in that kind of situation. I am so sorry" I said

"I don't want that kind of relationship within our friendship. Not to say that sex with you wasn't amazing. Which it was. That was a good time. But I don't want you to be that kind of girl in my life. I want to always come to talk to you & I want you to always come to talk to me. I have a lot of trust in you" Niall said sincerely

"I never intended to be that kind of person in your life like that. I want to go back to how things were before that all happened" I said

"They will, I just want you to promise me that you don't spiral out of control like last time. I know you & when I saw you out of control in the past it broke my heart. I don't want that to happen" Niall says talking about the past. I really wish he would let that go. I hate when he brings that up. Nothing is not going to change me back to that place again.

"I promised myself a long time ago I won't go back down that road again" I said to him

"Us sleeping together is a sign that you are. Like I said I know you" Niall said sternly

"I need you to continue to be my moral support. Our friendship is really important to me...... Please believe me when I say our friendship means the world to me. Things could be worse but having your support right now......it makes it feel like I can bare this. So please don't use my past to determine my future mistakes. I've screwed before, I did it a week ago & it won't be the last" I said hoping my soft tone with the last part gets across

"I'll keep you from that" he said

"Thank you"