Color Blind

Messes

"Ave ya lost yerr fucking mind boi"

"You can have yours, but I can't have the woman I love"

"Jus cause ya ain't met da white gal yet, don mean ya go and fuck dat lil nigga gal, she da reason ya brother a fuckiin lame na"

"Welp she not a slave no mo pa, and if I want to move my fiancee' in, I can" I heard heavy breathing and a loud slapping sound.

"Ya finished Pa, if ya don't want me, her, or ya grandchild here, we'll leave"

"She my slave, I got a lot o' money for her and dis stud babies"

"I'm back from war Pa, means slavery ain't no more, she a free person"

"Ya tell her dat boi, think she go stay wit ya when she known shes a free nigga now, go walk up and down dem streets like she a white gal wit dem pretty dresses o her's, slavery ain't over, just illegal"

"She's mine Pa, ya ain't takin her from me, jus like havin a wife didn't take Miss Mabelle from ya" I heard footsteps and tried to hide more behind the door. I don't know why I thought this would be easy. What Mista say, is it true, am I free? Why didn't I feel free?

"Baby, you can come from behind the door, no one going to hurt you here" I did as Johnny said and frowned when I saw a huge red mark on his face. I instantly rushed to his side, kissing the horrible mark as if I had the power to heal it.

"Already feeling better, let me show ya where ya sleepin, then ya can see Journey, ya Ma, and the new baby" Was he serious, I hadn't seen Ma since Trey left, come to think of it, I remember hearing a baby cry when I came in. 

"Come on then" He gripped my hand in his and I followed him upstairs, not missing the way Mista cut me with his eyes, making me shake a little.

"Don't worry, he can't touch ya" I nodded my head and walked into the room, my jaw dropping as we entered. This room was bigger than my shack, with a beautifully made bed, and even a pot to piss in, there was a claw foot tub in the corner that I yearned to use.

"Want me to have Journey run a bath for you" I was so tempted to say yes, especially after how she treated me as her slave when I was a child. I could get her back so good by making her serve me. I smiled at the idea, but shook my head. She was still my sister and I loved her.

"No, if I could, I do it myself"

"Of course you can baby"

"What ya say to Mista, ya know, bout me bein ya fiancee' ya mean dat" Johnny pulled me close to him and kissed me with such passion.

"You've been mine since I saw Percy bothering you by the lake that one time, i couldn't get you off my mind, I tried, I knew it wouldn't be accepted, but I wanted you, then the war, and ya free now baby, we free to love each other"

"Johnny, not dat I don luvs ya, cause I does, but Trey" His face fell at the mention of Trey and I became confused and sad, thinking I hurt his feelings.

"I...........uh..........I forgot ta tell ya, I put out word anybody find him ta let me know, I needed him to sign da divorce papers, so I could marry ya, turn out.............uh........................baby i hate when ya cry, lets run ya bath" He said walking over to the tub, but I stilled him with my hand on his chest.

"Tell me" He sighed and pulled me over to the soft feathery bed, if I didn't have such a scared feeling in my chest, I would have laid back and slept forever.

"When I got there, he had been beat bad, real bad, blood everywhere, I neva tol em to do it baby, I swear, but I couldn't save him, honey..................Trey.................he...........................he's dead" My body shut down, I was numb to any and everything. Trey, my love, my lover, my husband, he was dead.

"See honey, I told ya, I didn't wan ta see ya cry, I'ma have Journey run ya bath" I placed my fingers underneath my eyes and felt the tears. I felt cold as Johnny left to find Journey, I laid across the bed, hearing horrible sobs coming from somewhere, they became worse when I realized they were me. I felt a soft feminine hand, and a baby touching the side of my face. I looked up and through my blurry vision saw momma and the new baby. Whiter than Journey and Chris put together, almost a carbon copy of a female Percy. 

"Let not your heart be troubled baby, it's okay" I folded my body until my head was on her lap, as she hummed me to sleep.

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"Johnny"

I looked up to see Journey at the door, with some young boy with her. I gave her a small smile as I gripped the boys arm and pulled him around the shed.

"Ya find him"

"Yes sir, dey beat him good just like ya said, I'm sposed to bring ya" I nodded and went to the stable to get my prized horse, Vallah. After walking the boy to his horse we went to the shed on the outskirts of town. After tying Vallah up, I followed the boy into the shed where Trey was tied up, and his face and body so swollen he resembled a balloon.

"Hey Trey, nice to see you after you married my gal, and breeded my motha" I put on some gloves as I walked over and punched him in the face, blood spewing over my clothes. 

"Was wrong lil Johnny blue, ya dick aint fittin in Vannah no mo, nah not after how I stretched dat pussy out every night, morning, evening" I hit him again, harder and harder, until he spit a tooth out. 

"I should fucking kill you, you fucking nigga bastard"

"Oooh, theres Mista son, Is was told ya killed a white man for calling a lil black gal a nigga, can't be racist towards the men, while fuckin da women Lil Johnny Blue"

"You da only exception, da only reason ya aint dead and scattered is cause I love Vannah, so you either leave and you never come back dis way, or I'll kill ya"

"Hmmm, I don't know, Vannah was a beauty wit my baby inside ha, and Riva was close to calling me daddy" I couldn't stop myself after that, I beat him until I became tired and he wasn't moving anymore.

"Throw him in a crate and put it in a river"

"I don't think he dead"

"Do it" They began to scatter as I paid the men, then went to get on my horse and went home.

"Johnny, what happened" I looked at Mrs. Maybelle and smiled, even if she was my father's mistress, most times I loved her more than my own mother, technically she was my aunt, so she was family. 

"Nothing, had to clean up a mess in da barn" Mrs. Maybelle narrowed her eyes at me and I felt like she knew, I was so sure she knew.

"Hope dat mess don't come back round on ya" I gave her a smile as she went to tend to my newest little sister.

"Me too Mrs. Maybelle" I mumbled to myself.