This is my first story on here and I know it sounds confusing so i'm willing to answer any and all questions. This is a fictional story about slavery times and I will be very candid and be as honest as I can with what I know about this time in histo...
I held Riva close to me as I still mourned the death of my husband, not only had I lost our child, I had betrayed him while he was dying. Maybe missus was right, I am a whore. I felt so disgusted with myself, I felt like I wasn't fit to lay in Johnnys bed, and if Riva wasn't so close on me, I would lay on his floor like the dirt I am. While I was missing and loving Johnny, I was fucking Trey, and while I was missing and loving Trey, I was fucking Johnny. If that ain't a whore I don't know what is.
"Vannah, baby, it's a beautiful day out dere, let me take ya out, ya momma say she'll stay wit Riva, it ain't good for ya baby, to be like this, specially when you got Riva, please Vannah" I looked up at Johnny as he laid behind me, kissing the back of my neck.
"I'm so sorry Vannah, I known you love him, I guess there's no room fo me in dat big heart of yours no mo huh" I gripped Riva tight and turned us towards his father. My heart broke to see Johnny sitting there looking so sad. Was he stupid, of course I still loved him. I never stopped, I couldn't.
"Ya playin me Johnny, I neva stop lovin ya, I love ya always, wes got a babe together" Johnny smiled down at me and softly kissed my lips, then Riva's forehead. Riva made grabby hands at his father who picked him up and kissed his forehead again.
"Swear he da best gift ya eva coulda gave me Vannah, get ya self clean while I drop him off wit ya mama, wear one of dem pretty dresses I got ya" I just nodded as I went to the closet that Johnny had set up with beautiful dresses for me. Dresses that before today I had only seen Journey and Missus wear. Momma didn't even wear these, even though I'm sure Mister had got her plenty. I couldn't figure out how to put the damn thing on, this was very different than the shifts I was used too.
"Girl, what ya doing" I heard Journey laugh as she came in.
"That ain't how ya do it, girl, c'mere" I shuffled over to my sister as she helped me put on my dress.
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"You look so beautiful, big sista" I smiled at Journey as Johnny came back in the room. He walked over to me and kissed me softly.
"Thank ya Journey, hey Johnny" he smiled at me as he grabbed a satchel with one hand and my hand with the other. We went outside where his horse was waiting and I frowned, a little frightened. I had never rode a horse before. Johnny smiled at me as he got on, then bent over to pick me up and put me behind him. I wanted to scream at how frightened I was, but I just held tightly to Johnny's waist, kissing the back of his neck to calm me. One of Johnny's legs moved and the horse started to go, making me scream in fright, Johnny laughed at me making me poke his side.
"I'm sorry Vannah, but it will be okay, hold on my waist, and don't let go" I did as he said and buried my face in his back so I wouldn't see Johnny getting us killed.
"It's okay Vannah, we here now" I was more than happy to get off the horse, Johnny hopped down first and I was amazed at how good he was at this, then he gripped my waist and pulled me down.
"I hope ya take no offense Vannah, but havin my lil boy in ya, deen gave you some womanly curves" I felt my face get hot at that.
"Yous sayin Is fat"
"I is saying ya look like a goddess" I didn't know if I could blush like I've seen missus do, but my cheeks felt really hot.
"Let's go" I looked around and saw a lot of green, there was so much grass, trees, flowers, just beautiful nature. There was a large pond that Johnny pulled me too, he went in his satchel, took out a blanket and laid it out, then motioned for me to sit. I did so quickly and he sat right beside me. He started going through his satchel again as I looked at the ducks swimming in the pond.
"So, I, I uh, had a lil birdie tells me, ya was learnin how to read" My body tensed in fear, it was against the law for a slave ta know how ta read.
"Vannah, relax, I would neva hurt ya, I just if we goin to Paris, you need ta know both language, and since I speak English, Hick, and French" he said laughing at himself.
"I want to teach ya both"I was too happy, I jumped on him kissing all over his face. I could teach River how to read one day, and maybe ma, and pa.............right. Pa was dying, and did not want to see me.
"Teach me" I demanded as I sat up straight, Johnny looked at me for a moment and smiled.
