My Gladiator Family

Chapter 25

~MIDNIGHT~

~ELLEN'S P.O.V.~

 I'm scared. I can't feel strong for Sam, I just can't. I can't feel all these emotions, it's too much.. too much pain, sorrow, hurt, just WAITING to happen.. I felt a warm tear run down my cheek. I turned to look at Sam, sleeping peacefully. I can't love you.. My heart sank. My heart hurts now.. I think I should just not feel anything..

Nothing would be better than all the happiness in the world..

 I can't go to sleep. I quietly sobbed, being careful not to wake up Sam. I can't hold it in anymore. Evil Ellen came up to me. "Do it.." she whispered to me. "You don't want your heart." she continued. "I don't want it.." I whispered. She summoned a knife and handed it to me. I put it up to my chest, right where my heart is. The sharp point pierced my skin.

*stab*

I woke up. My palms sweaty. I sobbed loudly and Sam woke up. He ran over to my bed and sat by me and pulled me into a hug. He laid down on my bed and I laid by him, head on his chest. He wiped my tears. "Talk to me" he whispered. "Evil Ellen handed me a knife, and..." I couldn't finish. He fit the puzzle pieces together. "She's not here." he whispered. "You're safe" he continued. I hugged him tighter, and he continued wiping my tears. His cold hands felt good on my burning skin.

 Now I know I for sure can never love. That's what would happen.

 I fell asleep on his chest.

~MORNING~

 I woke up and Sam woke up too. He got up and left me laying in bed. He walked to the kitchen and fixed us a bowl of cereal. He handed me a bowl of my frosted flakes, my favorite. I sat up in my bed and ate in bed. Sam came and sat by me with his bowl of cereal. "I think we should both just stay in today." he said gloomily. I nodded in agreement. We continued to eat our cereal. I began to think of the dream. How am I supposed to live without any love..? A burning tear fell down my cheek. I turned my face so Sam couldn't see it, but he already saw my tears falling. He turned my head to face his and pulled me to his chest. He put our cereal bowls down on the lamp table and held on to me. I sobbed into his shirt. He ran his fingers through my hair. I waited for myself to calm down. Minutes later, I finished sobbing. Sam wiped my last tear and we got up. "You ok?" he asked. "Ya, I'm good.." I lied.

I'm scared to love.

 I got on my laptop. I had a question. I searched 'evil heart'. I clicked on the first website, 'hybrids and hearts'.

 Hybrids are sensitive. If they are hurt in any way, shape, or form, there is a chance an 'evil presence' could come and influence them to do things that could harm them or someone else against their will. These evil presences tend to influence using the brain. This is how hybrids have the possible ability to fight. But, it is possible for the evil presence to enter through the heart. Should it enter through the heart, the heart will trap the evil presence in. The evil presence will be trapped in the heart, and will never leave. The hybrid can fight and stop the evil presence sometimes, but the evilness will never leave them.

I cleared that from my search history so Sam wouldn't read it, and put my laptop away. I looked to Sam and he smiled. I smiled back. Sam went back to watching TV. I can fight Evil Ellen, but still, it's so tempting to use the knife she has. Sam can't fight, though. Evil Sam will use any opportunity to hurt him. Sam has no idea about this information, but if I told him, It'd just trigger Evil Sam.

I'll never love.