Speak Up: (Chandler Riggs)

Chapter 32

{ Won't sleep till I've done all it is I'm livin for }

Bridget's Point of View

RECAP:

-Christmas break is almost over and I'm heartbroken. Staying at Chandler's place really helped me, and now that it's almost over, I'll have to go back to the place I dread most, school. I know, I know, I'm a teenager and all but I think everyone hates school.

I finally met Chandler's parents, for a very brief and very awkward night. They stopped home while Chandler and I were airing out the smoke from the burnt cookies and preparing more dough to make new ones. His parents thought he was burning the house down and flipped on him until they saw me. They were surprised and a little disappointed when they saw me, I mean who wouldn't, to be honest. A random girl, whom they didn't invite into their home, is staying there without them knowing. I wouldn't expect them to be so smiley either.

New Years is coming up and I'm hype as fuck, though.

This Christmas/winter break was odd and so different. Not staying at my house with Xavier really fucked me up. My anxiety was really bad Christmas Eve, and just a wave of sadness washed over me. It was such a foreign feeling, only because I haven't felt that way since Xavier passed.

I pushed him out of my mind completely. I stopped thinking of him and talking about him. I shut down. I just couldn't process it, I guess.

It was so weird to wake up Christmas morning and to not have him jump on my bed and shake me awake. But besides that, I've genuinely been happy and putting out good vibes.

Lately, I've been thinking about what happened with Kian and I a few weeks ago. I forced it out of my head when I was with Chandler, but it's all that's been on my mind for the past week. I've been trying to remember what he told me. Thinking as crazy as I am, nonstop, will sure as hell give you a bad migraine.
He told me not to tell anyone what he told me. Of course, I've done a great job because I can't remember what the hell he said to me. I shall figure it out soon.-

"Chan!"

I got no response.

I walked into his room, only to find his lazy ass still sleeping at 12 noon. It doesn't matter what time he falls asleep at, he always wakes up late.

"Chan get up." I said as I walked over to him and shook his arm. He made an awkward groaning noise and rolled over. "I'm being serious, get up. I have something to ask you."

He rolled over again, facing me. Chan tried his best to open up one eye, but it just looked like he was squinting at me. "What," he whispered and closed the one eye that was open.

"I wanna go—" Chan forcefully grabs my waist and almost body slams me into the bed, him laying on top of me.

"No!! Not this bullshit again," I laughed.

"We're not going anywhere today."

"Why?" I asked, confused. He didn't even wanna hear where I wanted to go. I wanna visit Kathleen, I really miss her and I haven't visited her in a week or so.

"Because it's a me and you day."

"It's always a me and you day, Chan. You either take me out to lunch or we go food shopping." I rolled my eyes and giggle.

"Shut up you love it." His voice was muffled bc he was talking into my shirt. I laughed. He can be funny at times, I guess.

"I wanna see Kathleen today," I told him.

"Oh," he paused, "you didn't hear?"

"Hear what???" my heart and stomach drops to my ass. No..

"I'm pretty sure she's getting out today. If you wanna go, we better go now."