Forgotten l.h

Chapter 3

They both kind of just sat there with their mouth hanging open like guppies. "Well" I urged on trying to get him to talk "I need answers!"

'Stop it they didn't do anything wrong' a voice told me. I tried to shut it out but it kept pestering me 'you didn't need to keep your front up so much that you push everyone away, soften up' no matter how much I wanted to deny it, my conscience was right. I don't know why but every time my back gets pushed up into a corner I turn almost hostile. I guess I just feel like it's me against the world, and I mean in a sense it kind of is. I mean, I don't even really know who I am so how can anyone else have my back? I only have myself. Yes of course I have Matthew and Ariana but I could forget who they are I don't want to lose anyone else.

I looked back at Luke. He looked so uncomfortable, like he was facing something he had been avoiding for a long time. God that THING was probably me. I bet I was the last thing he expected to see when he walked in through those doors this morning. After all if those memories  that re-surfaced have any truth to them, he did have a baseball bat swung at his head. Seeing me probably made him have memories that he had surpressed re-surface as well. Happy first day of your internship I guess. I guess we're both kind of the same in that way. Realizing this I decided to soften my exterior a bit, we were in the same boat. I offered him a small smile as an olive branch. He returned the smile and his eyes became less scared.

"Well..uh... Ok let's see..."Luke fumbled with his words as I could tell they were coming from a hard place. I could tell he was trying to remember something he would rather not think about. I knew it caused him discomfort but I needed to know if anything else had happened that he knew about and I didn't. Even the smallest piece of information would soothe my racing my mind. Hundreds of scenarios were racing through my mind, causing my rage rate to go up. This caused the monitor to go off again. I gave Matthew a look and he unplugged the machine. I was still surprised that Matthew hadn't tried to interject yet seeing how he hated confrontation such as these knowing how much stress these put me through. "I'm pretty sure you know everything that I know, and what I do know isn't very pleasant."

I was about to reply with 'I want you to go over everything that happened' when Matthew finally I interjected our exchange probably sending the tension in the room that had settled over us.

"Jane I think you should best wait until tomorrow, you have already had one massive flashback and I don't think your mind can handle another one. Hey and don't start off with 'I treat you like glass' speech because I don't. It's just you might lose everything you have remembered"

I begrudgingly agree to wait until tomorrow which turned my already off mood sour. I told the boys that I wanted to be returned to my room and left alone. Matthew and Luke disconnect the machines from me and removed my IV drip as Matthew framed I was fit enough to walk back to me room. Matthew urged Luke to go to the supply room to fetch more bandages for the rest of their rounds. I found this strange until I realized Matthew wanted to walk back to my room with me.

"Jane-" Matthew starts once Luke has left.

"Matthew" I cut him off "I'm not glass, I can take it" I say as I cross my arms like a 8 year old little girl.

He chuckles "you sound like my- " he stops before finishing his sentences, obviously letting something slip.

"I sound like who?" I pry knowing full well that this is about his daughter that he refuses to talk about.

"No one" he says sharply as he picks up his pace. I catch up to him and stand in front of him, blocking his path. "Jane stop-"