Cheater Levi x Reader I Hate You

Backstory

Well it happened back in the last year of middle school. (Too young I know right well shut up if you're gonna be judgmental pricks this is my story so shush it).

Me and Levi and Hanji and eyebrows and sniffers had been friends since diapers. We were all conjoined at the hip and surprisingly Levi didn't mind having friends despite even being antisocial at a young age.

Mine and Levis parents had been great friends and practically wanted me and Levi to get married, so then guess what happens yup we have an arranged marriage for Levi and I.
I was happy about it once I had figured out what an arranged marriage was when I got into grade school finally asking mom and dad what it was but Levi was beyond angry like deeper than the pits of hell because he had to marry me like I'm not that bad.

Am I. Am I too ugly. Too fat. To skinny. Too plain or basic

But not wanting to be a disappointment to his mom and uncle Kenny he protected me acted nice and pretended like he actually cared for me. Everyone bought his act.

But going into middle school things started getting rocky between me and Levi we fought so much behind closed doors we knew how to fake smiles and laughs to where I thought they were real I hated Levi so much, I never thought I could someone even more after the news our parents gave us.

"Ohh we want you guys to start practicing safe sex so you guys won't be nervous when you guys have to on your honeymoon"

You fake ass parents why would you even say something like this who tells their child this I hate him. I hate you. I hate life. I hate the world. 

But we did as our parents said to do and "We tried it" more like rape should I say I didn't want the baby I wanted to die I wanted to crawl in a hole to never be found again ever but my parents were happy they were gonna get a grandchild in their heads the deal was sealed and we were gonna get married and live a wonderful happy life. But life sucks.