Always

Chapter 19

Kevin

Something about her makes me want to own her. Not because I see Selena in her but, she's more.

I miss Selena. I hope she's here to say the right things and everything will be fine.

Selena has been my long time girlfriend. For about 3 years since our first year in college. It was all good.

I would drive her home, take her out. Do movie marathons with her. She loves horror movies, I would watch as her eyes open wide when it's on its climax.

I would kiss her, kiss her breathless. Hold her hand, hold her in my arms.

But then she wanted to follow her dreams. Fashion was her dream. She wanted to pursue it in US. Me, as a supportive boyfriend, I wanted her to go too.

Bakit hindi? Ganun ko siya kamahal para suportahan siya sa mga pangarap niya even if it means we'll be parted.

First few months of our long diatance relationship was smooth.

We would video chat, I would sing for her and she'll cry saying she misses me. She would show me her new designs and how Kendall Jenner would use it.

She would show me her selfies with famous models and celebrities. And I would congratulate and be happy for her.

But then she started getting really busy every single week. Naiintindihan ko naman siya eh. I would understand why she can't answer my calls, my emails, chats. Because I knew then that she really wanted this.

I was scrolling through her facebook page one day and regretted it immediately when I saw what she had been posting.

There's a picture of a model she uploaded. The caption says, I miss him.

Maybe they're only friends. I got more curius. My hand turning ito tight fist.

When I continued to scroll down I saw them both in an intimate picture. Him holding her in his torso. Her legs wrapped around him while they share a kiss.

I got angry ofcourse but that was a long time ago.

I was the one who broke up with her para hindi na siya mahirapan. Nilike ko lahat ng photos nila to let her know that I was already aware na may kapalit na ako.

She didn't say anything while I was talking to her on the phone.

She's just sniffling, crying maybe. But I don't do competition. Lalo na at model ang kalaban ko. Malamang talo na ako so I just let her be.

Since then she would always message me but I wanted to just try and forget everything so I blocked her.

Now, I don't know where she is. Don't even know how she's doing.

I hope she's doing fine.

Masakit yung ginawa niya pero ano pa nga ba magagawa ko kundi magmove on. The pain is still here pero atleast hindi na tulad ng dati. I was a mess back then, nasuspend pa nga ako sa choir noon eh kasi nalaman nila na uminom ako noon.

Bawal sa amin yun eh, Prof is really strict about it and Allen has been always there for me. What more can I ask for?

I was getting better so when I saw Alexis, everything came rushing back like a rush of waters.

Cold waters. Dark memories, painful ones. But I thought that's all she would bring with her but no.

She brought comfort, hope and I almost forgot what Selena did to me.

Ano kayang masasabi niya kay Alexis? She's beautiful too. I know cause I had the chance to stare at her when she's fast asleep in the bus on our way to Manila. She sat next no Kamille. She's not snoring but Kamille said she does this thing with her breath while she's sleeping that makes her look sexy, sound sexy.

She is sexy. Perfect curves in the right places. Does she even know she's beautiful?

The way her lips move when she's talking. Her eyes close when she's singing.

Perfect

I'm sitting right now infront of my steering wheel. Wondering how to deal with this feelings. They say she's dating Caleb. But whenever I see them, they don't seem intimate.

Cold play is playing in my stereos. And I was humming with it. My guitar at the backseat and my bag on my side.

I am parked infront of our school waiting for Allen. When my phone rang.

"Dude, Alex 3:00 to the right" he breathly said through the phone. I can even hear his ragged breathing.

I turned and saw Alex walking with Kamille out of the school. She looks carefree and young and innocent.

Alex will be perfect if she becomes my girlfriend but I doubt it would happen.

It wouldn't

Allen came in rushly in my car. "Dude, let's go" he said still catching his breath.

"Saan?" I asked still looking at Alex.

"Just follow Kamille's car. I heard that crazy bitch Maxine talking about how she will knock the life out of Alex" he is still breathing raggedly.

Bile rise in my throat as I maneuvered us to the road. Following Kamille's car.

I feel my heartbeat go wilder and wilder by the second. They parked infront of Vzcos and went out.

Pinark ko yung sasakyan sa likuran lang nito.
Akmang lalabas na ako nang hinila ni Allen kamay ko.

"Have you gone mad? Lalabas ka and then what? Let's just stay here and wait. Lalabas ka lang pag nakita mo nang nasa alanganin si Alex. Ano ka ba?" he say shaking his head.

I stay quiet and do as he says. I watch them walk inside. Ordered food and then I saw Maxine entering.

"Saglit lang" instructed Allen. He does know what is happening.

"She raised her hands in her hips. That's the signal. Kev we better go there now" he said again rushing out the door. Padami ng padami yung mga babae sa labas. Kakampi niya I guess.

We ran inside the restaurant pushing everyone who gets in my way. Kamille looks mortified.

Alex looks relaxed.

Just as Maxine raised her hand to hit Alex I caught it,

Alex (girl)

"What the....." she turned and saw who held her hand.

Kevin

"K kkuya Kevin" she stuttered. My brows furrowed.

"Show's over girls. Get lost" I hear Allen yelling outside.

I turned and saw many girls were outside probably waiting to pull all my hair out of my scalp.

I shuddered at the thought.

"A a anong ginagawa mo dito kuya?" Maxine asked still stuttering.

"Let's go" Kevin pulled her out.

I was dumbfounded. Kuya?

"Older brother, to the rescue"  Kamille sing sanged and whistled.

"Magkapatid sila?" I asked now evening my breath.

"Well technically no. Maxine's the younger sister of Selena. Him and Maxine got pretty close since then" she said ressuming her eating.

"Selena? Sino siya?" I asked still lost. "Oh, right. Selena is Kevin's ex girlfriend" she implied.

"Oh" is all I can say.

"Pretty fucked up right?" she smirked.

"Yah" I nodded and continued eating.

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