Always

Chapter 37

"Trust is a greater compliment given than love itself."

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Alex (boy)

I ended the call wanting to let the information sink in.

I sat on my bed trying to understand the situation.

I shut my eyes trying to suppress the anger and pain I'm about to feel.

Of all people, bakit si kuya Kevin pa? Of all people, why does it have to be the person I trusted the most?

Gusto kong tanungin lahat to kay Alex but I don't think I can ask her all without breaking down infront of her.

Without showing her my anguish and I don't want that to happen. I don't want anything of that to happen.

This is getting so complicated and difficult. Bakit?!!!!!

I picked up the pillow on my side throwing it in the air, and the following pillow, and the following until there's nothing left.

Hindi ko namalayan, umiiyak na pala ako. That night, I cried myself to sleep. Trying my very best to forget everything even for just today.

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Hindi ko alam kung anong ginagawa ko dito sa tarangkahan ng bahay nila kuya Kevin, I don't know how or when I came here but one thing's for sure, I wanted to confirm it myself.

I wanted to know and hear it from him. Pathetic, I know but it's the only thing that could make me stop.

Kakatok na sana ako pero biglang bumukas yung pinto.

To my surprise, it was Alex.

Alex (girl)

Holy shit!

Alex is here, I opened the door for him. I mean, I'm going home now. Yet again, he came out of nowhere making me dead in my tracks.

His eyes were blood shot, dark circles were visible in his eyes. Tiredness and restlessness can be seen in his face.

The glow was already gone. He wore his usual outfit, black skinnies and white shirt together with his all too familiar black vans. Hair perfectly tousled and thick lashes framing his ever enchanting hazel eyes that were once shining, but now all I can see is hatred and anger.

Lagi namang ito ang get up niya but something's missing and I can't point it out.

I saw him clenched his jaw and walked pass me leaving his scent whifting in the air behind him. I know that I'm the one who did him wrong and by now I know that he already knew but I can already feel tears pricking my eyes. No, I don't wanna let him see me cry. I wanted this, I wanted him to get hurt. I have no right to cry.

Hindi ko namalayan na sinusundan ko siya. Maybe it's my instinct to just follow him before. But now, it's different. I just can't follow him.

Good thing nakalayo na siya bago ko pa siya simulang sundan. Pumasok siya sa kwarto ni Kevin.

Oh no