*this takes place a month after Matty had left, and she was at home. So I'm saying November?*
I wake up in another strangers bed, though my new boyfriend is probably on my couch. I never thought id be this girl. Spending more time in a club than at my home.
"Bye Alyssa." I hear a deep voice speak as I sit up.
"Its Juliette, but goodbye." I roll my eyes as I pull my dress over my head and stand. I grab my heels in one hand and walk out of the bedroom.
I make my way into a dingy smoke filled living room before rushing toward what looks the most like a front door. As soon as I exit I rush to a bush and vomit.
"Fuck." I mumble and wipe my mouth.
I pick my phone up and order an uber. Now i wait.
____Twenty bucks, and 30 minutes later im in front of my apartment. I struggle putting the key into the door, and when I'm finally in I'm relieved. Until i hear a slight cough come from the couch.
"Another late night?" I hear his voice grumble as he looks at me through tired eyes.
"Zach I don't want to do this right now." I drop my heels then begin walking toward my bedroom, stripping my dress as I walk. I stumble slightly over the scattered mess beneath me.
"You never want to do this." He sounds exhausted.
Why can i never destruct on my own? I always seem to get someone else involved. Can I not be on my own? Why am I so unhappy?
Maybe I should just pack up and run away. New place, new people, new phone. No. I can hide from friends, but what if he were to reach out. Matty.
I turn around, standing in my underwear. I put my arms out for a hug and he comes to me. He doesn't make me feel safe, he's not him.
I begin crying. Its routine at this point, I fuck up, I get caught, I cry, he forgives me. I don't know if I want him to forgive me this time though. Maybe i should be alone.
"Whats wrong sweetie?" He whispers into my hair.
I pull away from his cold body.
"You aren't Matty. I don't love you." I halt the tears and walk away toward the bathroom.
"For the amount of times you've moaned that name, you'd think I was him." He shouts then grabs my arm.
"Oh really now?" I say as sarcastically as I possibly can.
He smacks my cheek, making my tooth catch my lip and I taste blood.
"You may have spoken like that to him, but not to me." He points at me like im a child.
I stand there shocked. Ive never been hit like that.
A tear, just one falls.
"Get the fuck out of here, and I swear to god if I ever see you again." I whisper angrily.
"How will you swear to a god you dont believe in?" He mocks me. "Ill expect your call tomorrow. Slut."
I walk into the bathroom, closing the door quietly. The quiet is piercing.
It started good, a week after Matty left I met him. Of course in a club. He bought me drinks, then took me out the next night. It was pleasantly normal. I thought I wanted normal.
He started acting like I was a possession and thats when I started sleeping with other people. Proving a point?
I start the shower and sit down under the warm stream.
I want to be happy again.
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THIS IS A MESS SORRY.I just think someone in this situation wouldnt have clear thought. Idk.
Is it decent so far?
Im lowkey liking the sequel better than the original lols
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If I believe you
FanfictionSequel too 'She said the air is so clean' Follows an insane mind, or two