Hidden Intentions

4. Rape

"Shanice wake up" I opened my eyes to see Jhanae dressed up.

"What time is it?"

"It's 8:00"

"Damn the day still not over yet"

"No but I'm proud of what you did earlier with Ray I hope you feel better soon, I'm about to go out, want to go out to get your mind off things?"

"No I'm good thanks though"

"Alright" She said walking out the door. I decided to go back to sleep till I heard footsteps outside my bedroom door, I figured Jhanae was still here about to leave. I heard my bedroom door open so I opened my eyes to see a tall figure in the darkness I turned on the lamp on my nightstand to see Ray standing at door looking like he was about to kill somebody. That somebody being me. I was officially scared.

"How the fuck you got in here? Why you looking like that?"

"I like how you thought it was cool to tell my mom about that shit and had the nerve to kick me"

"You deserved it all don't be trying to come for me, your ass fucked up bad and you had to pay"

"Well you're about to pay for what the fuck you just did earlier" He said coming towards me and pinning me down on my bed

"What the fuck are you doing get off me, let go" I said trying my hardest to move. I looked into his eyes which told me that he was serious, and I wouldn't be getting out this situation. "Ray please don't do this you know my past and this just stop and get off me please"

"Shut the fuck up I don't care about your past a bad girl deserves to get punished"

"What the fuck Nigga get the fuck off now" I said getting angry, eventually I was able to push him off of me but as I went for my phone and started dialing Jhanae's number by the time I was done I felt a cold, hollow cylinder pressed against my face.

"If you touch one more number on that dial pad I'll blow your brains out drop that phone." I did as he said. I slowly moved my head away from the gun and turn around and looked at him

"I know you angry right now but put that damn gun down and go home you really don't want to go through with this" The second I finished saying that I felt the pistol come in contact with my face as he pistol whipped me. I felt my face to see if any blood was apparent but nothing was there but just pain.

"Listen you're going to do as I say and if you don't listen you'll be costing yourself your life get up and come over here" I started backing up to the wall like this was not going to happen to me a second time only if I can reach my phone right here.

"So you're being disobedient huh?" He said way past angry at this point he came towards me and grabbed me by the arms lifting me up throwing me on the bed pinning me down even harder than before. As I screamed for help I tried my hardest to get him off of me but no avail. My eyes started to water as I felt him tear off my clothes and put the gun right next to him threatening me even harder this time. I laid there feeling like shit, someone I went with out with, gave my trust to betrayed me like this and goes ahead and take my innocence not giving up that I went through this before.

After what seemed like forever he grabbed his stuff not saying anything, walking out the door leaving me there feeling like nothing but a piece of trash. I tried to get up but I was in so much pain I couldn't walk but I had to do what I had to do before anybody came home. I went and took a hot shower trying to wash every part of him off of me. Once that was done I took the sheets, pillow cases, and the clothes I was wearing and went outside and threw them in the trash.

"Shanice are you ok? Why are you throwing all those things away? Why are you crying? ShaSha answer me? Why were you screaming over the phone? SHANICE TELL ME WHAT IS FREAKING WRONG WITH YOU" Jhanae snapped as we were walking back into the house. I slammed the front door behind me.