Chapter 40
It's been almost a week since our massive fight. We didn't speak for the first 5 days, but Gardenia was currently knocking on the door. I could hear her saying sorry, but I ignored her. She was only over right now because she found the letter of her acceptance. She didn't try to contact me when she still thought I was the only one accepted to the school.
I didn't think I wanted to forgive her, anyways. The way she acted, that wasn't how somebody who loves you is supposed to act. She was putting herself before me, as she always seems to do, and that's not what couples are supposed to do. She's not the only one allowed to have a future. Why is it alright for her to go to Florida and lie to me about it? I understood, because it's her future. I wanted her to have a good future, and I understood. But as soon as it was about my future, all she could think about was herself. She shouldn't. A relationship is two people. It's not about one person bending to fit the other's needs. It's about both people compromising for one another. She didn't seem capable of that.
So as she knocked, I ignored it. My mum wasn't home, thankfully, otherwise I was positive she'd let her in. 'Give her a chance,' she'd say, 'She probably didn't mean it.'
But I'm fucking sick of giving her chances to prove that she loves me just as much as I do her, when in reality, she just doesn't. She's selfish and only thinks of herself, and that's not what I want my girlfriend to be.
I looked down at my vibrating phone, reading the text message she sent me.
I didn't mean anything, Harry, I'm so sorry. I should have known you better than that. I love you so much. I'm sorry.
I locked my phone and set it down again. I didn't want to reply. She should have known me better. She shouldn't accuse me of such terrible things, and practically break up with me over something so little. That isn't love.
The door opened, and I had a mini heart attack, before looking to see my mum. She must have gotten off early, today.
"Why was Rose crying on our doorstep, and why did she run off when I pulled up?" My mum knew something was up, since Gardenia hasn't been around all week, but I ignored her whenever she'd asked. I decided to divulge her, now.
I sighed, "We broke up."
"I assumed so. What happened, now?" She asked, sitting across from me at the table. Did we really fight that often? I didn't think we did.
"Well, I'm not sure if Robin's told you, but he's been helping me get myself and Garden- Rose," I corrected myself, "Into Michigan State University. That was her dream school, and she got rejected. Anyhow, I got my acceptance letter in the mail before she came over last week, and I hid it in a book. Well, she knew I was acting suspicious, and asked about it but I just told her it was a surprise for her. Because, it kind of was. Robin came over and wanted to talk to me, so I spoke to him, leaving the room in the process. At that point, I didn't know if she got accepted or not, but he told me she did. I was so excited to tell her, but while I was gone, she read the acceptance letter that I hid in a book, and was pissed at me. Saying how much of an asshole I was for even considering going to the college she was rejected at. Isn't that nice, mum? After I was doing all of this shit trying to make her happy, she couldn't let me be happy for once. She was only thinking about herself, once again. And we haven't talked all week, but she finally found her fucking acceptance letter, and now she's crying at my door. I couldn't give a shit, she did this to herself."
"I see where you're coming from," my mum hummed, nodding her head as she thought about it. "And I agree. She can't expect you not to continue your future just because she didn't get accepted somewhere, that's ridiculous."
