Dawsey| Above the clouds

13

I hear them arriving and the sounds of doors opening, jackets flying everywhere and people talking, those sounds spread all over the building.

Normally I like when they come back because I don't have to be alone but right now it would be good for me with some time alone. I don't want to talk to Matt right now, I'm not ready. I know I have a lot to say and there's a lot of things I want him to know but I need to calm myself first.

I wipe away the tears and leave Boden's office. Somehow I need to get to the bathroom before Matt and the others comes. While aiming for the bathroom I look around to not bump into the guys, it's quite hard. There are basically doors, corridors, corners, everywhere. You'll never know when you'll bump into someone.

To aim for the bathroom was a bad idea. When I walk around one of the thousand corners in this building, I see Matt a rough 20 feet in front of me. I glance at him and and madly turn to the common room, just to avoid him. I hope he didn't see me.

"Gabby?" He asks.

I stay. I'm in the middle of the common room, it's empty . When I hear him walking into the room and breathing behind me, I turn around.

"Is everything alright?" He ask.

Awkwardly I look away. I know it'll be hard to explain how I feel. What if everything I suspected is wrong?

I take a deep breath "No, everything is not okay" I say.

He look at me, the look he gives me is very painful. He looks very concerned and it stabs my heart, like if a serrated edge knife had been pushed inside me and then pulled out again.

I look at him, I open my mouth to say something but I get unsure and close it again.

"Gabby, you gotta' tell me if something is wrong" He says worrying.

"Are you cheating on me?" I say quickly.

I kind of regret that I asked that. Now when it's said I feel like I asked in a very mean way. I bite my lip and look away from him to not see his reaction.

He laughs and looks at me "Are you serious?" He asks.

"This isn't funny" I say.

"I would never cheat on you" he says, but he's still smiling.

"Who is she?" I ask madly.

Matt look at me and one again he smiles. It really bothers me that he can't take this serious, this is really important to me because I love Matt but I can't love him if he don't want to love me back.

"Who?" He ask.

"You know" I say, I know he knows who I meant.

"Just a girl who's right up my heels, nothing to worry about" he says.

"It feels like you aren't telling me everything, why can't you just be honest with me!?" I scream.

"Because there's nothing for you to know" he says.

"Unbelievable" I say and tackle his shoulder as I walk past him. If he really is cheating on me, I'm not sure what to do.