Dawsey| Above the clouds

12

Work again. It may sound boring but nowadays when Matt is away all the time it's more fun to be at 51 because there I have something to do. I've promised the boys, mostly Mouch, to bake something. Maybe a massive chocolate cake, but really, anything with a high sugar level will turn these men on.

Of course the first thing that happens is a call, everybody leave their stuff and rush out to the trucks. Normally it's quite nice when they are out on calls because then I get time for myself but nowadays I want someone to talk to.

There's one thing that has to be done and can be done because I'm all alone, and it's Matt's office. It looks like someone dropped a bomb in there, papers everywhere and everything is way beyond organized. It scares me because his office is normally pretty clean.

I walk there and start to pick up papers and trash from his floor. I know it's wrong to touch others things but first of all, Matt and I are having a baby together and second of all, his office can't even be called messy because there's no word that can describe how it looks.

I start to pile the papers that are on his desk, if they are in a neat pile it will look a little bit better and absolutely better than it did when I got here. Piles upon piles upon piles, Matt has a lot of work that he hasn't done yet and that has to be done. I need to push him forward.

suddenly, among the papers and whatever he has on his desk, a pink post it note falls down on the floor. I pick it up and look what it says, it's a phone number and a heart drawn underneath.

There's a knock on the door, I turn around and it's a male with a huge bouquet with pretty flowers. I open the door and he place the flowers on the only empty spot on the desk.

"Delivery for Matthew Casey" He say.

I push out a fake smile and sign the delivery.

I'm going to talk to Matt about that when he comes back. That reminds me of something else that has to be done, I need to talk to Boden about Matt. He isn't taking this baby thing very well and it breaks him down.

I walk to Boden's office and knock on the door, when I see him giving me a gesture to come in I walk in and sit down on the chair. I think Boden sees that everything isn't okay, he remove his glasses and put them on the table. He give me his full attention.

"It's about Matt" I say "He let the baby situation break him down and to prove that he's good he is working on a renovating project, he's working evenings, nights and always comes home late" I continue.

"I will talk to him when he comes back" Boden says.

"And I think Matt is cheating on me" I say and a tear leaves my eye.

It feels good now when I have said it, it's something I have carried since that baby died.

Boden get up from his chair and walk to me, he wrap his arms around me to spread some warmth.

"You'll have to talk to him about that, let him know how you feel" He says.

Another tear leave my eye.