Hukayserye

Frustrations

SETTING: SHORE, 10pm

"Hey love, sarap ba ng weekend mo?"
"...." (Sound of waves crashing)
"Hello? Love?"
(Silence, water splashes in background)
"..."
"Hello, Maine? If you won't answer ife-Facetime ko 'to."
"No, don't. Wag. Nagpromise ka, no Facetime until you get back."
"Eh bakit ba kasi ayaw mo ng Facetime? Ayaw mo na ba kay Bibi boy?"
"Susmaryosep RJ. Grabe. Aliw ka na niyan?"
"Sidetracking. Wag mo ibahin ang topic. Why no to Facetime?"
"Wag na. Maiinis lang ako."
"Maiinis? Kanino? Sa'kin? Ano na naman ginawa ko?"
"Hindi, hindi sa'yo. Everything, except you."
"Love, hindi kita maintindihan."
"You know what? I am watching the sunset all alone right now. Alam mo ba kung nasaan ako nakapwesto ngayon para matawagan ka? I'm here at the farthest cottage away from the people. Away from Coleen, even."

"And?"
"And that is the part na kinaiinisan ko! I can't even have a proper phone convo with you in public! Everything- lahat ng pupuntahan kong sulok may camera na nakaabang, palaging may BTS."
"Maine-"
"Even Snapchat! I want to post pics of us, pati yung mga pictures natin sa Bora, even the Tagaytay ones! I mean how long do I have to keep on doing this-this-"
"Nicomaine, stop, stop."
(Sighs heavily)
"I just... I just... I just wanted to let them know how happy I am...Bakit hindi pwede?"
"Nicomaine, are you crying?"
"No, sand just got into my eyes. Ba't ako iiyak?"
"Sa'kin mo pa talaga sinabi yan? Tahan na."
"Ang unfair lang kasi. Eight months into this and still I can't meet you in public na hindi tayo pagsasabihan."

"Are you saying that we should whatever this is?"
"NO! NEVER! Tisoy, I can't...I don't mean it that way. Naiiinggit lang ako. Kay Coleen. Lalo na sa Twitter. She can tag Mike whenever she wants, can leave comments on his posts without people fussing." (Sniffs)
"Maine, Love. Listen to me."
"...."
"Maine, the day I felt different for you, I knew you would be like this. I knew that having you know how I feel for you entails sacrifices- at nakakatawa, ironically, the biggest of them was to control how the way I act around you."
"Go on."
"Marami kang hindi alam sa akin."
"Tulad ng?"
"Tulad ng kung gaano ako muntik nang bigwasan ni Dad nung nasa Pico De Loro kami, kasi puro daw ako 'I miss her.'"
"Pfft. Okay."
"Tulad nung halos kaladkarin na ako pauwi ni Ate April from Bora kasi nakita ko yung comment mo sa IG. Until today, naiinis parin sya."
"..."

"At tulad nung kahapon, nung hindi sila pumayag na kasama ka sa Canada, muntik na naman kami mag-away ni Riza kasi nagdadabog ako sa bahay."
"Tisoy."
"Do you understand now, Maine? Kung pa'no ko nakakayanan na hindi ka makita?"
"?"
"Kasi deep inside-oo, makapal na ko- alam kong you feel just as frustrated as I am. I am comforted by the thought na 'Namimiss ka rin nun, quits lang'."
"Truly, I do."
"Meng, you don't have any idea kung gaano ko kagustong ikaw ang unang makita ko paggising ko sa umaga. Hindi mo alam, kung gaano ko halos ilagay sa alanganin yung career natin pareho sa tuwing papagalitan ako kasi out-of-line mga pinaggagagawa ko sa KS. Di mo lang alam, yung inipon kong self-preservation and restraint, ngayon ko na muntik pakawalan. Dahil sa'yo."

"RJ, you..."
"Kasi dahil sa'yo, I felt na minsan, masarap maging pasaway."
"Pfft. Hoy RJ, gaano kadalas ang minsan?"
"Mga everyday, ganun."
"Hahaha! Grabe siya!"
"See, now you're laughing."
(Clears throat)
"Hindi rin. Kasi may CanadaPaMore. Tapos ALDEvasion pa more."
"Gusto mo talagang mahinto na talaga 'to?"
"Yes! Of course I do!"
"Then marry me. Right now."
(Silence, sound of crashing waves)
"O kitams. Tameme ka ngayon."
"Tisoy. Wag ganun."
"Wag ganun kasi ayaw mo sa'kin?"
"Loko loko! Wag ganun kasi baka tumakbo ako pabalik ng Bulacan para isuot yung letter E!"
"Hahahaha! Yan ang wag mong gagawin, Nicomaine. Dahil ako lang dapat magsusuot niyan sa'yo. Walang iba."
(Heavily sighs, turns Facetime on)

"Tisoy, I already miss you so...so...sooo much."
"Ampula ng ilong mo. Mukha ka ng panda."
"Uwi ka na agad, please."
"Di pa 'ko nakakalipad, uy."
"Ehhh. Promith mo. Didirecho ka agad sa'min."
"Opo, yes Love."
"Good. Burberry good."
"Teka Meng, anong kinakanta mo kanina sa SC? Secret Love Song?"
"Oo bakit?"
"May sagot ako diyan."
"Ano?" (A clears his throat)

🎶Just tell me you love me,
Whisper words I so long to hear,
Let this time not be borrowed,
Let it be ours to share

If you tell me you love me,
It would lead a way to your heart,
Through the mirrors of silence,
You love me...🎶
"Through the mirrors of silence, you love me...?"
"Nicomaine, quietly and with all the self-control I have, without a doubt, I do."
~END~