Dear Diary

Chapter 11

Life is a rollarcosster. There are ups and downs and it’s a rough ride. Really rough for me. I don’t want to sound like a complaining b-word but like I think I have it harder than some people. Well its better now than the last few terms. I did shit to my best friends and I guess they dumped me. Im just reminiscing this all now actually. Like nothing I do is seen as a good thing. Like when I try to help people, it just goes downhill. I just want to do something good for someone so I try now.

Obviously the main topic is Du. These days, I think he hates me. Him and Morgan. The coaches. Like they picked me and M out at training and pretty much called us the shit players of the team. I thought they were coming back to school for us, but then I found out they were getting paid. I was so stupid to think that they came back for us. I will qiote morgan, ‘its easy money to get through uni.’ I know I shouldn’t be offended but seriously. are they back for us or the money? Honestly, when I found out, I was kind of down. I think that everyone in the team is there for a reason. Like everyone has a good trait. Like I know everyone has a good in them. Well except the pop group but ill get there. Ill even list the good traits. Im meant to be doing English right now, wait this is in my English doc. Oh well. Anyway…im a major procrastinator but if its something I really love then I would concentrate full on. I GOT A SHINY LVL100 DIALGA!!! Sorry, majoy geek/nerd as well but its not my problem if people see me that way. In ym eyes, I just need to be awesome to myself and that’s good enough. Yup. Anyway, back to the topic at hand, good and bad traits about everyone in the team. I know 3 of them are reading this so yeah J

M – shes a net player. Like her setting is awesome and even though she talks a lot, when shes concentrated, she can easily get sidetracked but if she concentrated more, she can be one of the best players.

N – shes a digger. Mainly she plays net  or front court. She just needs to work on serving to be honest. Sometimes theyre short but al you have to do is smash it right? I guess that’s how I manage my anger. ANGER MANAGEMENT. Hah…..im so lame according to D. anyway…

A – she definitely a back court person. Like seriously. she can dig to a specific spot and bam. Its there. She just need to work on serving and concentrating that’s like all aha.

Chlo – shes perfect in every spot. Just (again) stronger serves and according to our coaches, jumping when spiking. I don’t want to be mean, but it was pretty funny to see Morgan and Duane quit life.

Ang – again, shes perf. I think she just needs to overarm serve more I guess…

Lucy – her height. Oh she loves me.

Sha – too bad shes leaving next year L but generally everything I guess. Ok ok don’t go all ‘Sakura! You dog!’ she just started this year but shes pree good at digging but more control. A lot of power but just control :D

Page – oh god don’t get me started. Ok I really strongly dislike her with a passion. Like shes good but bad. I know she knows all the basics but she thinks she has the worste life cause her parents are going through a lot so she picks on me. Every trainging. At times, shes awesome but at others I want to punch her. Shes good at setting but one time, she said to me, ‘act your age.’ Act my age. SERIOUSLY. I LIKE BEING A KID OVER BEING A STUCK UP PIECE OF SH!T. also, she should act her gender at the least. Seriously.

Morgan – I know shes coach, but she counts. She needs to work on not talking 24/7 when training. And according to  Du, setting.

Du – not being so hot, cute, adorablelittlepuppy so I can get over him. Also his height. But hes really good at setting and thinks he can out-grow me. hah. J

Ok so my mum is being kind of scary these days. She’s too…nice. In the past, I struggled to get her to buy me some gum. Just Thursday, she got me and my sister Kim, How I Met Your Mother (HIMYM) box set. Seasons 1-7. Im waiting for season 8 but I have seen it. Ok so the gum was about $3 and the box set was $160. Oh, she also got me the brand new, trackpants from Target for $40. She is also paying for my Laser force party this Sunday, that costs $320. Ok I don’t know about you but my mum is never this generous. OH WAIT THERES MORE. We were talking over lunch and she asked what I wanted for dinner, I said spaghetti, knowing that she wouldn’t go to the shops to buy me some and we didn’t have any for dinner. The next morning I woke up and there was spaghetti being made downstairs. I have been contemplating if my mum got assassinated or something. Cause seriously, she is never this nice unless sh!ts coming. Right now, im only worried about one thing. How will I get to the last game? Like I want to ask Du but wouldn’t it be awkward? Talking about Du, I wonder if he thinks about me? I KNOW, I KNOW, SOME PEOPLE ARE FACEPALMING RIGHT NOW. But seriously, if I cross his mind even for a few minutes, I would be so happy.

OMFG SCHOOL UPDATES WOO. Ok so me and B are getting along so well. Hes like my wall. We make jokes in class and like just laugh. He also understands that sometimes, when it comes to schoolwork, im a lone wolf. Earphones in, world off. We even talk to eachother about our problems. Like if I get some sort of signal from a guy that I don’t understand the meaning to, I ask him. Same to him. Like if I girl cries, what should he do and stuff. I know guys are useless when a girl sheds a tear. Oh god. Shed a tear. Ryan higa. Nice Guys. BEST SONG EVER. I got him hooked and its like ouir song. OH. Also, we made a pact. I think it’s a stupid idea, but we are planning eachother’s 18th. My plan is something I found on facebook and im building from here. You sticky tape yarn to two walls and its pretty much mission impossible stuff. There are shots at the other end and like that’s the prise. Thing is, im the youngest. Oh wait no, Lucy is. We kind of expanded our group. Sam, Bray, Tam and Zach are in too :D. I don’t see why people hate the guys in the ‘corner’. They are actually cool people

One time, at Gloria Jeans, A caught up with me. I was just getting coffee and she saw nic, j, and jono. She called them noobs. This is what I pictured I was going to do:

‘aca-scuse me? Please get a pad and pen cause lemme just teach you some words that you need to know the definition to. Bitch means female dog. slut is a person who has sex with anything that moves. And noob means a beginner gamer that knows nothing of gaming and plays only for the sake of saying you play a game. Its sad that you started playing LoL and think its cool. Mate, I give it a month. You started cause of a bet? Woah. And they aren’t noobs. You are. They are proud gamer geeks like me. So shoo. They are awesome people and who are you to judge who they are if you havnt even said anything apart from hi. Actually get to know peple first. God.’

This is what I actually said:

‘Uhm, they are actually really nice people. Like, theyre really funny and stuff. You should talk to them one day.’

-Sigh-. Im such a bitch on the inside. I guess I just don’t want to be a mean bitch anymore you know? But if someone lays a hand on someone I consider awesome. Then honey, you gon see the rath of my bankai.

Next subject. I have been on facebook lately and A and M’s photos look realllllly familiar. I get it that they like taking selfies but taking photos that look really similar to mine? Woah bro woah. Like the stance of where they are. Me at the front and everyone else on the side. A shot of my mouth only and someone being retarded on the side. Cutting half my face to show only one eye. Mate. Thing is, I don’t want to notice these things but B and I tell erachother pretty much everything. He told me and I started noticing. Im not going to do anything because if theyre happy im happy I guess. I told D this and he was about to slap me. Aha. As a joke guys. But I should just let them be and watch from the sidelines. Like a mature person. Hah.

Honestly, in volleyball, im only good at serving. Maybe digging at times, but serving is my main strength. Du told me to serve it far back (in Volleyball, we say serve it deep) so I did I really powerful one that chipped the net and just went straight down. He said ‘woah.’ I asked B and he told me that Du was impressed. And then one time, I served it really close to the net and then A and Page went for it and crashed into eachother. As reflex, I said sorry and Du just kind of friendly snapped and was like, ‘why are you saying sorry?’ Later that night, he gave me a small lecture on not saying sorry all the time. I remember once at training, he threatened the whole team that if we kept saying sorry, he would make us do laps. Aha good times.

Ok one last thing. N, M and A think I still like H. woah bro. woaah. N told me that they think I forced myself to get over H for M. ok two things, I would do that if it was for M but I definitely don’t like him. I know they are all stuborn but they should know that I don’t joke when it comes to people I like. To be honest, im just going to let them be. Think what they think. H actually isn’t that hot anyway. To be honest, not to be really mean or anything, but he is actually the ugliest guy Asian I know of cause his personality stinks. I fell for him cause I thought he was cute at first and he was nice but now he can rot in hell for all I care. 

P.S 7 DAYS~! and sorry for the grammar errors! im just really tired and yea sorry! oh god i can imagine Du's speech. -shivers-

-Sakura