Long Lost Dream (5sos) [EDITING]

chapter 34

*one month later*

Ashton's pov

"Hey are you fine?" Calum asked me.

"No" I coldly replied him.

"Ashton you need to focus on the band. Give it some time everything will fall into place" he replied placing his hand on my shoulder.

"NO..nothing will fall into place. How can she do this? Who is this Cody guy anyways and from where did he come all of a sudden? Do you even realise Calum how hard it is to see the girl you love kissing someone else?" I said to him. Tears have started forming in my eyes but I tried to control my emotions.

"I know... but have you seen her properly. As much as i can figure out..she doesn't look happy" Calum said to me.

"I don't care about that. I feel like an idiot..I thought she liked me but I was totally wrong" I told him.

"Are you kidding me? I might not know Hannah well but I can surely tell you that she is not happy..something is definately wrong with her" Calum said to me.

"I don't know Calum..I don't know" I whispered.

"Hey..cheer up now.. let's go and get ready.. the show is in one hour" he said and we both went inside the building to get ready for our performance. I decided to leave this topic as it is and focus on today's show.

Cara's pov

It's crazy right now. Our schedule is so hectic plus I feel bad for Hannah and Lily because of their fake relationships. Liam and Lily are friends so its not that awkward for them to pretend to be a couple but still i have noticed that Lily is not lily. She is usually depressed and doesn't enjoy anything. A girl who used to find happiness in small things is no more happy. I know she misses Michael and wants him to be with her but she has no option. I miss old Lily a lot.

On the other hand Hannah is fake dating that guy named Cody. He is very weird. He actually thinks he is dating Hannah. I really think he needs to go see a doctor. Me and Maddie try our best not to leave Hannah alone with that psycho but yeah at times we have to leave them in public or whenever Sarah would say to leave them alone.. I'm pretty sure I have heard Hannah cry when she is alone but whenever I would ask her she would just say that she is fine. Not just once but many times I have heard her cry. It feels like she is hiding something but I don't know what. It's not easy being famous it's like your life is not your life anymore. It's controlled by others and that's what exactly is happening with Lily and Hannah. I wish I could help my best friends get over this but sadly I can't do anything.

Hannah's pov

I can't take this anymore. I just can't. Cody is horrible. He is obssessed with me. I'm sitting in my hotel room alone which i share with cody and the girls have gone out. I told them I'm sick but I lied I didn't wanted to go anywhere. I just wanted to be alone. I dont want to do this and i dont want to be in the band anymore. I want to go back to my family. I want to go back to Ashton. I miss him. It's been one month and we haven't talked. I know why he didn't call me because he might know about me and Cody dating. But he doesn't know that I'm being forced to do this. I'm sorry Ashton. I'm just a looser who does things that she is told. I was busy in my thoughts as i looked at my wrist and then at my stomach. I couldn't stop crying. Why is this so hard?

*flashback*

Today me and Cody are going out because Sarah wanted us to. I feel like a prisoner. My situation might look similar to Lily's but trust me it is not. At least Liam knows what it is to pretend to be in a relationship in public whereas Cody has no idea. We are going to a club which I actually don't want to go but my opinions doesn't matter. We reached the club in half an hour.

I was sitting alone at the bar while Cody was dancing with some girls. I'm actually happy that he is not with me right now. I was staring at my drink thinking about my now pathetic life.

"Hey beautiful you want another drink?" the bartender asked me. I blushed a little because he called me beautiful and nodded. Soon he prepared a drink for me.

"Here's the bill" he said and passed me the paper. I looked at it and was little confused.

"Umm... that not a bill. It's a number" I said acting innocent.

"Yeah..and that would be my number" the bartender smiled. "Wanna hangout tomorrow?" He asked me. I smiled. I guess I just wanted to be away from Cody for sometime and this guy was actually cute.

"Yeah sure." I replied. "What's your name?" I asked him which I didn't noticed he had written on that paper.

"Taylor" he answered.

"Okay Mr.Taylor get away from my girlfriend before I break all your teeth and your mum would not be able to recognise you" I heard someone say. I turned around and Cody was standing with red eyes. I don't know if that was from anger or alcohol. I looked at Taylor who was shocked. Obviously because he didn't knew i was here with my boyfriend. Actually fake boyfriend but I can't tell him that. Cody grabbed my hand roughly and pulled me out of the club where paps started clicking our photos.

It was 2am and we reached our hotel room. Everybody was asleep. Cody unlocked the door of our room and pushed me on the bed.

"You fucking bitch..what do you think you were doing?" He asked me angrily.

"Umm..no..nothing" I said looking down. He pulled me up and cupped my face roughly.

"Listen to me Hannah..you are mine and I don't want to see you with anyone else" he said.

"I'm not your fucking girlfriend. Get this. You are a pyshco. I don't love you" I shouted and pushed him off. I was clearly frustated. I then saw him and anger was boiling inside him. He rushed towards me and slapped me hard. It was so hard that I fell on the floor. I wanted to cry but I didn't want him to know that I'm weak.

"What did you say you bitch?" He asked me. Before I could reply he kicked me in the stomach. I cried in pain. He kicked me couple of times more and then grabbed my face roughly and kissed me hard. I didn't kiss him back. Tears were rolling out of my eyes.

"Hannah baby kiss me back otherwise I will do many things with you forcefully that you can't even imagine" he said calmly with an evil grin. I'm scared of him now. I shook my head because I didn't wanted to kiss him. I saw his expression change and he was again angry. He slapped me once again and now my lip was bleeding. I cried but it didn't affected him. He kissed me again on my lips and this time I kissed him back because he can do anything with me right now and I was scared. He looked at me and smiled. I hate him.

"That's better baby" he said and left me alone in the room. I cried and couldn't sleep the whole night. I can't tell this to anyone because if Sarah got to know this she might end our career. I have to deal with this if not for myself I have to tolerate it for the sake of the girls.

I cried more thinking of that night. I don't want to be with this guy. Obviously the girls have noticed my bruises but I somehow manage to make a fake story everytime. I don't usually lie but in this situation it was important. I just hope nobody figures this out. I'm stuck and god know for how long.

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A/N- i personally don't like this chapter at all :(