I Love Him But I Can't (Scallison)

Roses, Candles, and Kisses

Scott had been over every night for the past two weeks, doing homework with me in the dinning room as my mom and Kate cooked and my dad organized the garage. Today I was going to his house after school. Melissa had the late shift and it would be Scott's first day home since the custody battle had started. It'll be nice to spend time with him there.

"Hey Allison," Lydia said as I was about to walk out the door. "Stiles and I are going to watch some movies at his place, do you and Scott wanna come?"

"We were actually gonna just hang at his house for a little while."

"Ooh, alone?"

"Yeah, does it matter?"

Lydia grins and says "Well, you wouldn't want Melissa walking in on you two. Does she have the late shift tonight?"

"Yeah, but we're really just gonna be talking and having dinner."

"You two still haven't...," she trails off.

"No." I said feeling blood rush to my cheeks. "No, we've been waiting. He wants to make sure that I'm completely ready when we decide to do that."

Lydia smiles and says "Of course he does. Stiles and I took that step during court. I mean, not during court but like the battle, you know? It's still on going and I was really stressed towards the beginning of the whole idea of court again and he was just holding me and I knew I was ready to take that step with him."

"Why didn't you tell me? Best friends are supposed to talk about this kinda stuff."

Lydia sits on the steps and shrugs. "I've been busy with court and you've been busy juggling time with Scott and me. I didn't know when we'd get the time so I kinda put it off."

I sit next to her and say "I'll always make time for you." I nudge her shoulder with my own. "So, what was it like?"

"It's was really great. I actually had to laugh at one point because he was wearing batman boxers. It was just like any other night for us. There wasn't any pressure and it was just the two of us being ourselves. He was nervous and I was too, but we agreed to stop if we did something the other didn't like. It wasn't because we had to or because we were bored, we just wanted to be with each other in that way."

"Did you two talk about it before it happened?"

"Um, we had set a date for it to happen but then the custody battle had started so we hadn't spoken about it since then, but then it just happened."

I start fidgeting with my hands as I look at my feet. "Did it hurt?"

"Yeah, but Stiles was really sweet about it. He didn't rush it and he kept it slow. I think that helped." She smiles at me. "I'm so excited that we're talking about this. I felt so distant from you when I was keeping this to myself."

"You could've told Erica. You have known her longer."

"Yeah, but she had a bet that Scott and I would've done it by now." Lydia's eyes widen when she realizes what she says. "Scott and I never came close to even talking about this. I don't want you to thing that she bet that because we were all over each other or whatever, which we never were. It's just, our parents pushed us to be together and then so did our friends. The idea kinda bothered me a little. You know, it's just it was weird because we didn't really care about each other in that way."

"I get it. You two dated. I know that. I'm not gonna act like you two never dated. You don't have to be so worried about telling me these sort of things."