I Love Him But I Can't (Scallison)

Splitting Time

It was exhausting. It really was. I loved them both so much, but my life shouldn't be a schedule of who spends time with me now. It sucks the fun out of the trip. Today I'm scheduled to be with Lydia by the lake but I haven't seen Scott in three days since Melissa and he had to drive back home because they'd forgot some things. He got back late last night and I didn't have anytime with him. I'd have gone to see him last night but it was Lydia's turn.

I can't keep doing this schedule. I shouldn't have to wake up and ask whose day it is. Today I was going to spend time with Scott. Even if it was Lydia's day.

I woke up at five in the morning, went to Scott's cabin, and climbed into his room window. He was asleep still, completely unaware that I had just made my way through the first floor window. He looked so peaceful curled up in the center of the twin bed. Captain America boxers on making me smile at how cute they look on him. My super hero.

"Scott," I whispered when I sat on the edge. I shook him softly. "Scott, wake up."

His eyes opened and he sits up slowly. With a quick stretch of his arms over his head, making his six pack look amazing by the way, he seemed wide awake.

"Hey beautiful. Is it six already? How was your day with Lydia?"

I kissed the tip of his nose quickly. "It's five in the morning. As for my day with Lydia, I'm ditching it. Just you and me."

He wraps his arms around my waist and lays us down so that he was spooning me. His nose was buried in the nape of my neck. His hand laced with mine.

"That sounds nice," he whispered. "Totally worth whatever fiery it brings upon me."

"I've missed you."

He kissed my neck quickly. "I missed you too. I wanted to stop by yesterday but it was late and it was Lydia's night for you."

I face him and Scott kisses my forehead. I grab his chin with my free hand and kiss him properly. It was soft and slow. One of Scott's hands went to my cheek and the other stayed locked with mine.

"I love you," he said when we pulled away for air. "So, what do you want to do today since you're ditching the lake plan?"

"Can't I just stay with you? We can watch movies and cuddle. I just miss spending time with you."

He smiles softly. "Movies and cuddles it is."

I bury my face into the front of his chest and he rests his chin on my head. It was nice to just be in his arms. I drifted into a peaceful sleep, waking up two hours later with Scott smiling that sweet smile of his.

"What do you want for breakfast," he whispered into my ear. His voice extra breathy, making me giggle as it make my ear ticklish. He kisses the spot under my ear and I can feel him smiling against my skin. "What do you want?"

"It's not that simple," I said with a slight whine.

He laughed and moved away from me. "You did not just say a line from the Notebook."

I turn so I'm mounting him. "I totally just did."

"You've been watching movies with Lydia for too long."

"We should probably fix that. How will we ever take my mind off such amazing movies?"

Scott sits up so I was mounting his legs and slowly starts kissing down my neck. I pull his head away by using the hairs at the nape of his neck, pulling his lips to mine.