I Love Him But I Can't (Scallison)

I'm Not Part Of The Family

I was seated between Scott's legs as we sat on the floor. I leaned back into his chest as his arms wrapped around me tightly. Melissa had gone upstairs to get the family albums.

Lydia says "Allison, do you wanna go to the mall tomorrow afternoon?"

"Yeah. It'll be fun."

Melissa comes back with a giant smile. "I found the old albums." She opens it to the back. "Would you look at you two? A complete mess. I swore I wouldn't allow you both into the kitchen at the same time ever again."

She turns the album toward us to show a picture of Scott and Lydia covered in flour.

Scott laughs and says "I had flour in my ears. It took me an hour in the shower just to get it all out."

"I look like a ghost," Lydia said with a giggle. "We were making cookies."

Melissa laughs and says "That's when we deemed Lydia part of the family."

Part of the family. Lydia's part of the family while I'm just an outsider. I'd never be able to compete with Lydia. Melissa and her are so close. She loves Lydia. I'd be surprised if she even remembers my name at the end of tonight.

"Hey," Scott whispered into my ear softly as he tightened his hold on me. "You ok? You tensed up."

"I'm fine. Just got lost in thought."

Scott frowns and says "You touched your eyebrow. You lied."

Lydia and Melissa were looking through the pictures and laughing so they didn't hear us. I shift slightly so I can look at him over my shoulder.

"I did get lost in thought."

"So you're not fine," he asked with worry filling his features. "What's wrong? Do you have a headache? Low blood sugar?"

I laugh and shake my head. "Nothing like that. I'm fine, I'm just, worried."

"Let me help." He kisses my forehead gently. "You're problems are my problems now. Tell me what I can do to make it better."

I kiss him quickly and rest my forehead against his. "You already have." I shift back and cuddle into his chest again.

Lydia's phone rings and she leaves the room to talk for a while. Melissa showing me pictures of Scott when he was younger.

"Melissa, I'm sorry to ask, but my parents are going out of town for the night and they asked if I could stay here for the night. I'd be fine on my own but dad insists that I not be home alone. Do you mind," Lydia asked as she took her seat again.

Melissa waves it off and says "Of course not dear."

She would be spending the night? You've got to be kidding me. She doesn't even have pajamas!

"You can borrow one of Scott's old shirts," she said.

Lydia nods and says "Alright. Thanks Melissa."

This is unbelievable. She's sleeping here. At my boyfriend's house. She'll be wearing one of his shirts.

"Allison," Melissa said. "You should stay too. We could make a movie night out of it. You'll get to help me make the McCall famous pancakes in the morning."

Lydia then says "It took you three months before you even let me stand outside the kitchen while you made them. Six months before you let me help."

I felt myself smiling widely. Melissa likes me. She actually likes me. A few more hours and Melissa stands with a yawn.

"I'm gonna head to bed. Don't stay up too late you three." She hugs Lydia before kissing Scott's forehead and doing the same to me. "It was such an honor meeting you Allison. I hope you'll be over more often."