Like Father, Like Daughter

Chapter 25: The Worst Day

Janie's POV: Dad's weaker than ever. He's been sleeping a lot for the past two days. I think this is the end. I don't want it to be though. I don't want him to die. He's what's kept me alive. If he dies, I don't know what I'll do. I quick opened Twitter. The fans have been concerned because I'm not as active on there or YouTube as I usually am. I sent out a tweet. "Gonna take a break from social media for a while guys. Love you all." It read. Dad woke up again. "Jan." He said. "Yeah daddy?" I asked. "Please sing 'Hello' for me, one more time." He said. One more time. He knows he going. I sang, but barely made it through. I continuously choked up and cried. He smiled at me. "Listen to me. I'll always be with you. No matter what happens, I'll always be by your side. You hear me?" He said. I nodded. "I love you Janie." He said. "Love you too." I choked out. He kissed my mom then kissed my cheek. Moments later, he closed his eyes, and his breathing stopped. He's gone. My dad is gone. I started crying. Tears flowed like a river down my face. I laid my head on his chest as I continued crying. Mom was crying too. I got up and started to leave the room. "He's in a better place now Janie." Mom said. I stopped and didn't reply. I turned around. "He's with God now." She said. "There is no God." I mumbled to myself. "What?" She asked. "There is no fucking God!" I screamed before running to my room. I immediately got on my bed and started crying into my pillow. I screamed as I let the tears flow. He's gone. He can't be! He can't be dead! I can't do this! I locked my door. I rummaged through my junk drawer and found my old box of razor blades. I grabbed one and without hesitation started slitting my wrist again. I haven't done this for years. This was my breaking point though. I cried as I did so. I dropped the blade back in the box and continued crying and blood flowed down my arm and tears down my face. I grabbed the teddy bear dad gave me when I was a little girl and hugged it. I want him back. Please bring him back to me! I can't live without him!...