Anxious Player

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I couldn't stop thinking about what the girl said. It kept replaying in my head, over, and over, and over again. It was like a broken record replaying. I covered my head with my pillow, but it was too loud. These thoughts were shouting at me. They were like I had loud speakers on, listening to heavy death metal.

"Ugh, Jade. I can't stop thinking about it." I said as I saw Jade on the edge of my bed, texting whoever she was texting. "Just get over it. Try and act like you're happy."

But how can I do that when I'm so miserable with my life, when I have anxiety, when I have depression. I didn't respond after that. *bzzt*

I stood up from my bed and walked outside my house and I saw Connor, waiting outside the gate, holding nothing but his phone. I opened the gate and crossed my arms immediately. "Hey." He said as he wrapped his arm around me and pulled me closer to kiss me, but it was only on the cheek.

"Why not on the lips?" He asked as I didn't reply. "Kat, is everything okay?" "No comment."

I walked inside the house and sat on the sofa. "Kat, are you alright?" He asked once more. "No, I'm not alright." "Wh-"

"Because I can't get the fucking news out of my head."

"Do you really think I'd cheat on you for Stacey?" "Why are you even here?" My anxiety was taking over my system, I couldn't control my body. "It's because I was bored and I wanted to see you."

"Oh, so you only come to see me when you're bored?!"

"Can you stop? Look, that isn't true. I still fucking love you to death. I wouldn't cheat on you for a slut like Stacey with her fake silicon boobs."

I sighed, letting my arms flail beside me. "Look, I-I'm sorry Connor. My anxiety just took over my body and my depression started digging in, and.." He leaned in for a kiss. It was a soft kiss slowly becoming a rough one. I pulled away since my feet were tired of tip toeing. "Whatever you're going through, I'll help you." He said as he hugged me as tight as a 5 year old could hug a teddy bear.

"I just wish my anxiety could end now." I said as my head was pressing into his chest. His arms crawled up my back and onto my head. He started stroking me like a cat, and I wrapped my arms around him and started tearing up. "I wish I could just end my anxiety right now. If I couldn't end it, then I'll just end something else." I tried not to cry. Whenever I cry, it reminds me of how weak I am—Of how weak I am to a disorder—Of how weak I am when I fight. "Shh, it's okay. You are strong." As he said that sentence, I felt like he read my mind.

"You two lovebirds!" Jade yelled, making both of us pull away. She saw me wipe my eyes because some of my tear were still bottled. "Baby, what did this monster do to you?" She asked as she cradled my head. "Nothing." I pushed her away from me and saw Connor with an awkward smile.

"Oh yeah, Con. Is it official that you and Stacey are dating?" I rolled my eyes and sighed. I walked towards the sofa and collapsed. "We aren't dating, at all. It's only me and Kat." He said as I moaned. "Now can you fuck off?" He asked as Jade backed off and left the house. Yes. She obeys so easily.

"Who the fuck even started that shit?" He asked as he sat down and ran his fingers through his brown hair. "I just heard it from... Aika. The biggest gossip queen of the batch." I sighed.

"Hey, whatever they say about me and any other girl other than you, isn't real. Because I love you so much." He said as he wrapped his arm around me and pulled me towards him, making me rest my head on his shoulder. "Promise?"

"Promise." "Maybe promise can be our always." "Are you fucking kidding me?" He laughed as I chuckled. "I'm just kidding. But you will not be my always. You will be my forever."

He kissed me on the lips and I kissed back. "So... what now?" He chuckled as I shrugged. "What if I stay in your place for a while? I mean, there's not much to do in my house anyway."

"Until when though?" "I don't know." He smiled. I stood up and yawned, it was 11:00 pm, so don't judge. "Aw, my little baby is sleepy." Connor said as he laughed. "You really sleepy?" He asked as I nodded. "Alright. I'll go to your bedroom after I brushed my teeth." I opened my door and collapsed on my bed. Note that I was wearing a tank top and shorts, and he was wearing a muscle tee with some sweatpants.

3 minutes later, he walked in his boxers and his muscle tee. "Are you kidding me? You're only going to sleep in boxers and your muscle tee?" I asked as he nodded. I laid on my side and he did as well. I curled up into a fetus position and so did he. He wrapped his arm around my arm and intertwined his fingers onto mine.

"I wish I could just have this feeling every time I go to sleep." I said. "Me too."

"Oh yeah, what will we call each other?" I asked. "Let's just call each other boo in private."

"Okay."

"G'night, idiot."

"I'm your idiot.

"My one and only."

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A/N

Its so fluffy oml. Im also sorry if its short ;w;

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