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{ ashton }

above: hold on til may by pierce the veil

Imagine #1.

It was a hot night, being alone with an almost empty pizza box sitting on my bed bed and music blasting throughout the house. My mom was out with some guy, not that I care AT ALL. She's always out with guys she doesn't know and sometimes she brings them home. It's pretty disgusting when all I can hear is moaning, groaning, screaming, and springs bouncing up and down. Yeah. Life is one interesting roller coaster. Nasty parents.

My dad had died in a motorcycle accident 5 years ago, when I was just 12 years old. I was 18, almost 19, years old. School was tough and so was trying to be perfect. That's why on Friday nights, I sat home alone and ate pizza. Without anyone. All of my so called 'friends' would be out at clubs, having sex, getting drunk, smoking weed. Those were the reasons you state home. The dirty bastards that do that kind of shit sickened you to the core.

The only person that was actually there for me in my time of need was my best friend, Ashton Irwin. He was always the one to comfort me, wipe away my tears, scream at the basic bitches that hurt you. I'd known him since 6th grade. I had to admit, he was one sexy mofo. But there was always something holding me back when it came to telling him how you feel. It might have been the fact that I didn't want to throw away 6 years of friendship. What if he didn't like me back? What if he only enjoyed me as a friend and didn't want to be around after admitting feelings?

Really, I didn't even care at this point. He hasn't contacted me in 5 months. I texted him somedays, asking him how he was doing and other stuff like that. He always read the message, just never responded. It hurt. He would always start typing, then stop and never finish what he was going to say. I knew he was busy and all, but a simple 'Hey, (Y/N). :)' would have made my fucking day 10,000% better.

Just thinking about him brought tears to your eyes. I quickly wiped your tears away when you heard the front door open and shut. The music shut off as foot steps made their way towards the door. It flung open, revealing a smiling mother. That was different. She hasn't been this happy since the last person she brought home and had sex with. Im just surprised she hasn't gotten an STD yet.

"Darling, don't you remember what tonight is?" My mother asked. Tonight? What was she talking about?

"What?"

"Get dressed in something.. Better than that and meet me at the car in ten minutes." She said. Mother shut the door behind her, going out to the car to light a cigarette. I jumped off of my bed and threw on random clothes. I dressed up in a sweatshirt, faded gray skinny jeans, and some Osiris sneakers. I Ran down the stairs and out to the car where my mother was ready to drive out if there as quickly as possible.

I had been driving for 2 hours when I finally asked, "Mom, where are we going?" She ignored me and kept on driving. I sighed and slumped against the seat, resuming the music on your iPod. Blink 182- I Miss You. One of my all time favorites. I put it on repeat and slipped into a restful sleep.

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"(Y/N), darling, wake up. We are here." My mother said, shaking you awake. "Get out of the car and start walking towards the water."

"Alone?!" I screech.

"Yes alone." I stepped out of the car as it zoomed away, leaving me in the middle of the woods. I walked in the direction at that my mother pointed in and kept walking until you saw lake water. There was a figure sitting on the shore, gazing out at the water in deep thought. 'Might as well ask them if they saw anybody.' I thought to yourself. But as I got closer, the figure started to look more familiar. I stopped five feet away from them.

"Ashton?" I croaked out. Tears brimmed in my eyes as he turned to reveal his beautiful face. He smiled and stood up, as I ran into his arms. Tears started streaming down your face. But they weren't out of happiness. They were out of sadness, anger. I reluctantly let go of him and slight pushed him away. "What the fucking hell, Ashton?!" A look of confusion came across his face.

"What, (Y/N)? What did I do?" He asked, his eyes searching yours.

"Oh you know exactly what, Ashton! You haven't made contact with me in 5 months! I thought something happened to you while you were away on tour! So much as a phone call would have been nice, just to know if my best friend in the whole entire world was okay! I don't know what I would have done if something happened to you. I may have never recovered." I spit it all out at once, him letting you finish my rant as hot tears fell from your eyes faster than you could even imagine.

"Look, I didn't... I didn't.. I- uh," He stuttered.

"Just say it, Ashton! I'm tired of you always lying to me!" I screamed at him, it echoing throughout the quiet lake and forest.

"I couldn't talk to you without hurting, okay? Is that what you wanted to hear? Huh, (Y/N)? It hurt so much knowing that I couldn't help you if you needed it or if someone hurt you I couldn't punch their fucking face in. It hurt so much knowing that you missed me just as much as I missed you, if not more. It hurt so bad knowing that I couldn't wipe your tears away or hug you when you needed it! What else was I suppose to do? Just sit there and talk to you and act like very thing was okay?! It wasn't okay, (Y/N)! But you wouldn't know that because.. Because.. Because I didn't tell you." He said the last part in a small voice, it cracking at the end.

"Well if you would have told me this earlier, maybe I could have told you something that was important to me as well."

"And what was that, (Y/N)? It couldn't be as important as-"

"Im fucking in love with you, Ashton! Don't you get it?! I'm in love with you, Ashton Fletcher Irwin! I have been since 7th grade, but you were too blind you notice it! Call me when you get your priorities straight, or don't call me. Whichever you think is the right choice." I said, turning and walking away from him. He was dumbfounded. I wiped the tears off my face as i whipped out my phone and called a cab, crying the whole ride home.

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It had been a week since that major fight at the lake with Ashton. I hadn't eaten anything but junk food since then, using it as comfort since my mom didn't know or care what happened that night. He had called me a total of 48 times, texted you 467 times, and tried to Skype me twice. None of which I answered. I was scared, what was he gonna say? After all I admitted that I loved him, he wasn't gonna let it go that easily.

My phone vibrated against my hipbone, causing me to jump. You grabbed it and with a shaky breath, answered Ashton's call. "Hello?" My voice cracked into the microphone. I heard a sigh of relief from the other end.

"Oh my god, (Y/N) I thought you would never answer. Listen I just wanted to say that I am so sorry so freaking out on you like that. It was wrong of me and should have never said the things I said. I-" I cut him off quickly.

"Ashton, your making me cry. Can you just come over? It's not like my mom is gonna be home.." I trailed off, wary of his answer.

"I'll be right over." Was all I heard before the click, signifying that the call had ended.

5 minutes later, I heard a hard rap at the door. I jumped up and ran to the door from the living room, flinging it open. There he stood, the boy I loved. Within a matter of seconds, he had me locked up in his arms, squeezing me tightly. I hugged him right back before he peeled me off just enough to press his lips to mind. My lips moved in rhythm with his, never breaking as he moved from the hallway back to the living room. I straddled his lap before breaking to kiss and looking into his eyes.

"I love you so much, (Y/N)." He said as he kissed my neck feather lightly. I smiled.

"I love you so much more, Ashton." And that, my friends, was the beginning to a fabulous relationship.

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AND THERE YOU HAVE IT. holy shit it took me like an hour to write this. Sorry if it sucks. :$ more imagines to come tomorrow! I'll try to update everyday, bc I can't double update. Have a fabulous day tomorrow! byeee.