Poems/Songs

Past & Present

Nowadays, when I'm around you
I never know what to say
Anyway, when I have found you
I can't be how I used to

I feel like I've lost you
I'm so different now
And you seem to care less

We've never been close
But now it feels like we're strangers
We've never talked often
But now it's practically months before I see you again

What happened to us?
To our family?
Is it falling apart
Because of me?

Because I'm an outcast
And no one seems to like me anymore

Do you really know
How distant I feel?
I feel as if I don't know you
And you don't even notice

I wish things could go back
To the way they used to be

But sadly, time travel hasn't been invented yet
And I'm stuck in this reality

All I need is the past
I need it to come back
To be real again
I need it to be the present

Back then, we laughed together
Now we sit in awkward silence
We used to have fun
Now we bicker, and there's no stopping it

What happened?
To us? To me?
What happened to our family?

We used to be whole,
But now we're all pieces
Of a puzzle meant to stay broken

I wish things could go back
To the way they used to be

But sadly, time travel hasn't even invented yet
And I'm stuck in reality

All I need is the past
I need it to come back
To be real again
I need it to be the present

I can't take this
We're all drifting apart
It's like we're not even family anymore

We're a group of strangers
In many households
But when we're together
It's silence

For me at least
And I hate it
I hate not knowing what's going on with you
I hate not knowing you anymore

I wish things could go back
To the way they used to be

But sadly, time travel hasn't been invented yet
And I'm stuck in reality

All I need is the past
I need it to come back
To be real again
I need it to be the present

All I need is the past
I need it to come back
To be real again
I need it to be the present

I need the past
To come back and be real
I need the past
To become the present

I need it to be the present

I miss you

And I need the past to be the present

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Hey guys. This is kinda about my family and how since I've changed, we haven't been as close. I feel like my family doesn't interact with each other anymore. Not just my household family, but my whole family. It's like I don't know who they are anymore. I don't know who they are. And it hurts. It's like I'm invisible half the time. At family dinners, it's awkward silence. And I hate it. So freaking much. I hate it so much.

Anyway, I just wrote this. And I might try to update my Kellic fanfic soon. Idk. I love you guys.❤️

Spend time with your family. You never know how long it is before you drift apart or are separated. Tell them you love them everyday. Ask them what's going on in their lives. Be thankful you have family.💖

Stay strong, be you, and love yourself.💫
- Raylee