Poems/Songs

Forever Be

I have so many reasons
To be a happy person
But for some reason
I'm just not

I sit here
Feeling worthless and useless
And there's nothing I can do
To change it

I listen to music
I draw pictures
I talk to my friends
But nothing seems to help anymore

I've had so many chances
To make it right again
But for some reason
I don't

I never really know
What to do when I'm like this
I think back to what you've said
But it never seems to work

I need to feel happy
I need to feel joy
I need to feel anything
But the sadness I'm feeling now

I need to stop feeling
Like I'm being used
Like I'm worthless
Like no one cares

I need to feel
What is real
I need to feel cared for
I need to feel loved

I wish I could see
The reason you love me
Because I just don't understand
Why you do

I'm nothing special
I'm not beautiful
I'm not a genius
I'm not perfect

I want to feel happy
To feel loved and care for again
But ever since it started
Everything's been different

First he broke my heart
And then she broke my soul
And then I broke myself
And there was no one left to fix me

It all started with him
Not accepting me for me
Hating who I am
And what I love

Then she came in
And had to argue with me
About everything unimportant
And break me all over again

I never had time to heal
Before I went and did it again
I broke myself
In every way possible

I've never been able to fix me
And neither have you
And you never will

I'll forever be
A shattered vase
Ruining the beauty of the world
Pushing everyone away
Breaking again and again

I'll forever be
A dead rose
Amongst the beautiful live ones
Ruining the beauty
Of everything around

I'll forever be
A broken girl
Who no one will truly love
The way that she wants them to

I'll forever be
A ruined canvas
An unwritten poem
A song never before sang

I'll forever be
A shattered vase

I'll forever be
A dead rose

I'll forever be
A broken girl

I'll forever be
A blank canvas

An unwritten poem

A song never before sang

I'll forever be

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I just wrote this, and I'm not feeling the greatest right now, so I'm not gonna say much.

I love you guys.

Stay strong, be you, and love yourself.💫
-Raylee