Poems/Songs

Youre Slowly Killing Me

I really can't take this
It's slowly killing me
I thought you'd be there
But I guess not

We were best friends
Until this year
I don't know what happened
But I'd change it if I could

I'm so sorry
If this is all my fault
I really can't take this
You're killing me inside

You were my safe zone
The only one I could confide in
Now that's different
I can't trust you anymore

The way you reacted
That one day
Killed me
Not just inside
But outside too

You acted like I was nothing
Like you despised my very existence
And it killed me so much

You don't know the feeling
Because I've never treated you like that
I was always there for you
I'll admit
I made mistakes
But not like that

I know you were disappointed
In me
Maybe even yourself
But you can't change my decisions

You can try
But it won't work

I'm so sorry
That I've cause you pain
Anger
And sadness

I never meant to hurt you
And I thought it would be the same vise versa
But I'm not so sure anymore

You compare me to others
You say I copy them
You say you knew I'd react that way
Yet you kept saying it anyway

Be careful what you say
For it can change lives
Mine
And others'

I'm so sorry
If I had anything to do with
Us falling apart
But I really can't take this anymore
You're slowly killing me

With every fight
Every argument
Every word said
Meant to hurt

You're tearing me apart
Little by little
Quicker and quicker
I'll be in pieces soon

Nothing else
Just pieces
Of broken glass
All over the place

You're slowly killing me
And I really can't take it

Soon,
I'll be nothing but this air
To you at least

I thought you were a true friend
But like Oli says
True friends stab you in the front
You're a backstabber
I can't trust you
I'm sorry

I know what a true friend is
At least I think I do
She's amazing
She's there for me
She's the only person
I know I can trust

She wouldn't hurt me
The way you did
She wouldn't hate me
The way you did

That one day
Changed it all
I thought you'd comfort me
But you never did

Why can't we go back in time
To how it used to be
Fall Out Boy and Paramore
Everything so easy
City of Heavenly Fire
The Infernal Devices

It was so easy
Then it all changed
And now you hate me
I pretend like I don't know
I pretend you still care
But on the inside
The truth breaks me

It always will
Ripping my heart into pieces
Tearing off the layers I built
To protect myself
So I wouldn't get hurt

Somehow
You managed to break through
And destroy me
From the inside out

I'm sorry if it's my fault
But I can't take it
You're slowly killing me
Day by day

You may not know it
But you are
I try not to show it
But you are

I'm sorry
But you're slowly killing me

Inside and out

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Hey guys. I know this is the second one today, but I need RadRiley to know how much I really need her. I wrote this about my best friend in real life. Sometimes, she's there for me, others, she's accusing me of copying people and acting like she hates me. And she doesn't know how much it kills me when we're fighting because she goes to talk to all of our other friends, leaving me with no one. And most of our fights happen at school, so I'm not allowed to have my phone, so I can't talk to RadRiley She's my only true friend that I know I can trust. And I met her in the Internet. That proves just how much people in real life suck. The weird thing is, as I'm writing this, True Friends by BMTH just came on. I'm taking it as a sign that I'll be friends with RadRiley for a long time. She's always there for me. She won't judge me. She won't hate me for stupid reasons. She won't tell me to go away because she's getting sick of me (she said that to me herself). She won't hurt me. She will always be there. And for that, I truly do love her. She is my best friend, and I don't know what I'd do without her. Thank you, Angel. For everything.❤️💖

Stay strong, be you, and love yourself.💫
-Raylee