Poems/Songs

I Only Wish

I only wish I could

Talk to you
And be with you

I only wish I could

Have someone to listen
Someone who understands

I only wish I could

Be in your presence
In your embrace

I only wish I could

Feel as loved as you makes me feel
Right now

But I can't

I've done wrong
And I am suffering the consequences

I can't

I have no access to you
No way to tell you what I feel

I can't

I can't listen to you
Be there for you

I can't

I can't even help you
When you're in need of kind words

And for that
I apologize

I'm so sorry
I wish I could've stopped myself

I wish I could still talk to you
I wish I could still be there for you

But sadly
I don't know how long I'll be separated from my friends
And everything that makes me happy

I only wish

I only hope

To meet you
And see you

I only hope

To actually feel your arms around me
Holding on to me
As if I'll leave

I only hope

To hear your laugh
And see your smile

I only hope

To be the one to make you laugh
And make you smile

But it won't happen

I won't see you
Or meet you

It won't come true

I won't get to be in your warm embrace
Holding on so I don't leave

I won't be the one

To make you laugh
And make you smile

Because of what I've done

Because of what they'll do
To keep me from being there

Because sadly
They're the ones keeping me
From being there
And caring for
My friends

They're the ones
Stopping me
From watching or doing
Most things that make me happy

They're the ones
Who gave me my consequences
Who showed me what I deserve

I deserve this

But I wish I didn't

It kills me
That I can't talk to you

You helped me stay strong

You helped me keep going

You helped me
Smile
And laugh

You helped me
Stop crying
And you kept me from bursting into tears

You helped me

You're the reason I'm still here

You're the reason I'm staying

You're the one
Stopping me from leaving
From abandoning everyone else

You're the one who is giving me hope

To know
I'll get to talk to you again
Whether it be tomorrow
Or next year
I know I'll get to talk to you

They can't keep me from talking to you
That would truly kill me
I would die
Inside
Outside
Everywhere

My whole being would die
If I never got to talk to you again

You are my hope

You are my reason
To keep going

You are the one line of light in my world of darkness

And I only wish I could

Repay you for all you've done

I only wish I could

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Hey guys. Sorry I've been so inactive. I didn't have anything to put on here yet, and when I did, I couldn't. I was grounded for a while and I just now got Wattpad back.

I wrote this poem about my friend RadRiley I remember exactly what I was doing when I wrote this too. I was at my dads, laying on the couch. It was dark outside, and my grandma was asleep. My dad was taking his dog out, and I was just listening to music. I didn't have anything else to do except listen to music and read. I was bored, and really sad. I couldn't talk to any of my online friends that I trust, cause I was grounded, so I wrote this. I'll be updating this story thing a lot because I wrote many poems while I was grounded. So yeah.

Stay strong, be you, and love yourself.💫
-Raylee