Poems/Songs

Messed Up

I live in a capsule of self hatred
Everything in me hates everything I am

I wish I could disappear
Even for just five minutes
It would give me time

Time to think
About what is wrong with me
About why I hate myself
About why everyone I love and know hates me too

They forgot about me
I bet they're making out at her apartment
Not even remembering that we were gonna take a walk
Or watch TV

I bet they don't even care
That I'm upset
That I miss it
That I would do it again

I know he cares
But he can't talk

I know she cares
But she's with her parents
And I wasn't able to go with her

I don't want him to get worse
I want him to get better
And if I had gone
He would've gotten worse
But I didn't go
And I'm upset now

I miss them
They're two hours away
They used to be not even five minutes away
But he's sick
And there's no cure

My life is a mess
And so am I
But there's nothing I can do
I wish there was

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Sorry this is all over the place but I'm not feeling the greatest rn.
-Raylee