In the dead of night,
i'll wake up-
and my first though...
is about you.
For a few moments,
i'll just lay there...
thinking.
So many unanswered questions.
I close my eyes,
not wanting to fight sleep off
anymore.
It's not worth it...
this pain.
Everyday it grows-
stronger and stronger.
But-
by now,
I'm used to it.
It's just another thing
that eats me alive.
Is that weird?
That I let my emotins get
the better of me?
You've ruined everything.
I can't think straight.
Nothing makes sense anymore.
I'm beginning to think I knew
nothing.
I'm so angry.
I feel like crying.
Will someone tell me why
life hates me?
Can you explain why I
fell in love?
I want to change.
I have to...
if I dont'-
who I am,
will disappear forever.
Someone's watching me...
I can feel their eyes following
my every move.
It's like they're judging me-
for what?
I don't know.
I'm going crazy.
Something's wrong.
Something bad is going to
happen.
I don't know when or what.
It's just a feeling.
It won't leave me alone...
it constantly whispers...
I cry out for help,
I scream-
but no one seems to hear.
I want to wake up.
But it isn't a dream.
Then everything is dark,
any my thoughts stray
to you again.
It's like an old movie...
playing agian and again.