Double Or Nothing // C.T.H

13 ~ Calum

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I sigh dropping into my room, leaving Thomas on the roof.

I can't believe that she is Valerie. How had I not figured it out by now? She's like one big Puzzle, and I've never been good at those.... God help me.

"Hey" Thomas says, stumbling from the window into my room. "I was wondering, Could you uh... Help me gain muscle?" He sheepishly asked, causing me to roll me eyes.

The boy just don't get it.

"Did you not just hear what I said like 5 seconds ago?" I ask, giving him a look similar to a glair.

"No, I did." He pauses, glancing around my room. "But can you like be my personal trainer?" He asks, redness botching onto his cheeks.

I sigh. "Yea, sure. If you really want." I say, pulling my shirt off, planing to take a quick shower.

"I do." He says stiffly, his eyes glancing from my biceps to my face quickly, the redness intensifying by the second.

I watch him, my eyebrow raised slightly in amusement, the silence makes him even more awkward as he makes his way to the door, stumbling a bit over the cluttered floor.

"You should pick things up sometimes." He says, his nose scrunched up as his eyes travel the floor for a second before he leaves, shutting the door behind him, a quick 'Goodbye' leaving his lips.

I shake my head, a small chuckle escaping the back of my throat. He can be so awkward sometimes.

Grabbing my phone, I walk across the hall and into the bathroom. Thomas had everything in an exact order. Shampoo, then conditioner, soap, and lastly two wash clothes, folded nicely, mine first and his right beside it. He's blind as a bat without his glasses.

Turning the handle to the left, cold water slowly became hot as it fell. I glance at the already fogging mirror before stepping into the shower.

I let out a long sigh, the hot water making my skin tingle with relaxation.

I feel like I'm on the out side looking in, nothing seems normal anymore, I don't know what to expect, From My parents to Valerie or Thomas.

There's so much I don't know. It's like I had head phones in my ears the whole time with music blasting so loud that everything else melted away and it was just me.

What I wanted to see. I didn't see how everything affected Thomas, or how having Valerie as a friend could help him, since I wasn't there.

If I had opened my eyes a little more I would have seen how distant Ashton is, we haven't talked in almost a month or how stressed Michael is with his whole summer school situation.

Maybe I would have noticed how uncomfortable, scared even, that Luke had gotten at that party, maybe I wouldn't have left him alone. Hell I haven't even texted him to make sure he even made it home, although it's almost 3:25am at the moment.

And then there's Mali. She has obviously been staying at friends houses and 'out working in project's frequently because she can't handle conflict. Mali's had a rough past with an ex of hers, but that not my story to tell.

Gosh, I should have been there for each of them, my heart deflates slightly as I realize that they either are struggling because I wasn't there, forgotten about me, or worse....they've left me behind, not needing me anymore.